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Even though she had picked him he was still scared. Scared that she might change her mind or worst that she wouldn't feel the same after a while of them being actually together. He was scared that the only reason she was with him in the first place was for the feeling and not because she actually loved him and she just didn't realize it.

Zabdiel (8/21/20)
I've been awake for a few minutes just admiring Vanesa while she slept. I've been doing this a lot in the past week, wether it be before I go to sleep of before she wakes up. I find it crazy how before she could only stay for a few days but now, next week will come and she can still be here, in my arms.

We haven't really talked about her moving in with me but she's been staying here since everything happened. Not that I mind, if anything I would love for her to be with me everyday, I just don't want to pressure her into something if she's not ready.

She just stopped a whole wedding, and even though I would like to think she did it for me, I know she did it for her and her happiness, even if I had something to do with it it was still something she did for her.

"Siempre me vez mientras duermo?"- Vanesa caught me off guard as she came closer to me

"Solo admiro lo bella que eres."- she looked up at me and smiled

"Te amo."- before I knew it her lips were on mine and we were kissing

I don't know how I never met her before.

a few hours later

"Estas segura que no quieres ir?"- I was on my way out to the store real quick and had asked Vanesa if she wanted to go with me but she said she wanted to sleep a little longer but I still wanted to make sure

"Estoy segura."- she smiled before kissing me and once she pulled away she told me how I should now hurry up and go get food, there is no deigning I love her

I made it to the store not long after leaving, it wasn't far from my place which I'm very grateful for

I was currently in the fruit section looking for mangos that Vanesa had asked if I could pick up for her when I saw him. I saw Alejandro.

I didn't know what to do or if he had seen me, so I quickly grabbed Vanesa's mangos and rushed to leave but in doing so I dropped a few things making him turn to see me.

I tried to pick them up quickly while still looking down in hopes that he wouldn't noticed me but it was no use.

"Zabdiel! Que bueno verte! Como te va con Vanesa? Ya te va a dejar por otro?"- he asked very calmly which made me uncomfortable, not only how calm he was but also his questions

"Alejandro este no es el lugar para hablar de eso."

"A pero mi boda si era el lugar para irte con mi futura esposa y besarla?"- I was shocked, I knew he had seen us walk away but I didn't know he had looked at it all

"Mira la verdad yo solo espero que no te haga lo mismo pero no se tal vez ella nuca vaya a cambiar."- I looked at him before I said anything, I know he was hurt but that didn't give him any right to talk about her like that

"En vez de juzgarla deberías de pensar en lo que tú hiciste mal y porque ella tuvo la necesidad de encontrar su felicidad en otro lugar. Buen día."- and with that I left, I just couldn't stand being there any longer

What I said might've been harsh but it was the truth, he had to have failed at something for her to not be happy enough with him, and I will make sure I don't do those same mistakes.

However he still made me think, what if he's right? What if she leaves me when she isn't happy anymore? What if she just wanted to leave him and now she wants to leave me?

I just didn't want to lose her, I had already felt what it felt like to lose her without knowing I didn't but I still never want to feel that again.

Once I got home I saw Vanesa on the couch and as soon as she heard the door she got up and walked to me.

"Hola!"- she said before giving me a quick kiss but before she could pull away I set everything down and took her in my arms

"Estas bien Zabdi?"- I smiled before nodding, I've never been a fan of that nickname but just a few days ago she had called me by it and it changed everything, now I love it, as long as it's coming from her

"Solo prométeme que me amas, si?"

"Claro que te amo, te lo prometo. Porque lo dices?"- she asked worried

"Por nada solo quería escucharte decirlo."- I said calmly while still holding her in my arms, she slowly moved her hands from around my waist to my neck and pulled her face away from my chest

"Te amo y nunca lo dejare de hacer, te lo juro."- she whispered closed to my lips and before I knew it we both had leaned in

Making me feel better with just that kiss I smiled. I know that if she stops loving me that I'll accept it but that doesn't mean I ever will and will do anything to get her back. But for now I will only enjoy our time together and make sure that never happens.

"Te ayudo a meter las cosas?"- she asked as we pulled away, I simply smiled and nodded at her, but before she could grab anything I grabbed the bag where her mangos were at and showed them to her

"Tus mangos!"- she smiled at me excitedly and took the bag

"Gracias!"- she gave me a kiss close to my lips but not exactly and left with more bags in her hands to go to the kitchen

I love her and she loves me, and that's all that matters at the moment.

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