♥𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 ♥ {𝓜𝓲𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓮𝓵 𝓒𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓭}

trust (part 2)

Michaels POV

Ashton finally came out of the bathroom, he asked what all the yelling was about, I explained everything to him. Then he went to go talk to Liv. Calum was sitting on the couch scrolling through twitter and Luke and I were writing songs for me to sing before I ask Liv to go on tour with us. We'd been planning for her to go with us for a while now, pretty much ever since we knew tour was happening. I wanted to surprise her just before we left, I already had a bag packed for her. Not everything was in it though. We're leaving this Friday, so in 3 days. Meaning I only have an hour and a half to fix this with her and then I can give her the surprise. Tomorrow I'll take her to a roller skating rink that has a stage for bands to play, the boys and I will go on at the end of the night, after we play a few songs I'll sing the one Luke and I are working on and then ask if she'll come on tour with us. Hopefully we get through this rough patch quickly, I need her to say yes to tour. I can't go without her. I'll miss her too much and I wont play the shows right. I wont be as enthusiastic, and I have to be good for the fans so she's my resource to being perfect for sure.

Luke snapped his fingers, bringing me out of my thoughts. He showed me the page that was filled with lyrics. We had a name for the song but were having a bit of trouble coming up with lyrics. The song was called 'Disconnected'. The only lyrics we had down were "I like the summer rain, I like the sounds you make" and "You are my getaway, you are my favorite place. We put the world away, we get so disconnected". We thought up more lyrics for a while longer, almost finishing it, before Ashton came down. He looked straight at me as he walked down the stairs, he walked into the kitchen and gestured for me to follow him in there. I walked in there, he had a slight frown on his face. Which instantly had me panicking.

"She's really upset.." he said, my heartbeat started racing faster. I made her upset, this is my fault. Now she's not going to want to go on tour with us because of me. I cant do this without her. I know its a bit pathetic how much I depend on her but she's the love of my life, I need her.

"Michael calm down, you guys will get through this, its not that big of a deal"

he noticed I was starting to lose my shit, "She's not gonna wanna come with us now, she'll tell me she wants to break up since I don't trust her anymore" I started feeling a little dizzy

"Michael she's not going to break up with you and you know she'll be more than happy to go with us, calm down before you pass out. She just wants you to go up there and talk with her, get your head together. Calm down. And then go talk to her. Don't overthink this, she loves you more than anything"

"Ash, she's not going to say yes"

"Michael.. I just said she'd be more than happy to go on tour with us. She'll say yes"

"That's not what I mean dipshit" I said and looked up at him

his eyes went wide when he realized what I meant, "Oh my god... no way"

"I wouldn't lie about asking her that Ashton. Yes way"

"holy shit..." he mumbled with a slight smile on his face, "She totally will. She was talking about how she couldn't live without you the entire time we were talking Mikey, of course she will. Now go talk to her and fix this small problem, then go on your date"

I nodded, I walked up the stairs and towards our bedroom, stopping directly in front of the doorway. She was laying on the bed, staring up at the ceiling with tears rolling down her face as she sniffled. I made her cry, I promised her I'd be the one to make up for all her tears, I promised her I'd give her the best years. Yet here I am being the cause of her tears. The dizziness came back, my heart was racing, I was out of breath. The darkness was closing in on me, I could no longer see the floor, and slowly but surely I couldn't see our bedroom any more. My sight would come in and out, then I finally blacked out.