♥𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 ♥ {𝓜𝓲𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓮𝓵 𝓒𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓭}

be mine again

liv walked into our apartment with glossy eyes and messy hair. something was up, and i knew it was about us and her and calum. my heart started racing and my stomach felt empty. i know i fucked up with her, but i need her. i cant breath or eat or sleep if i dont have her. i hope we fix things and she can go back to being mine and only mine.
"hey baby, whats wrong?" i asked as i stood up from the couch and pulled her in for a hug. she wrapped her arms around my waist and squeezed me tightly. "promise you wont start yelling at me?" she said, looking up at me with doe eyes filled with tears. i could feel my heart physically break at the sight and it made me want to cry. "i promise" she nodded and pulled away from the hug, "um.. i-im in love with both you and calum... like calum its not to the point that i cant breath or anything like it is with you its just... different" all noise around me started fading out, i could barely hear her as she continued to speak. all i could hear was a continuous screeching sound. like a tea pot getting hotter and hotter by the second. how could she be in love with calum? i mean at least she still loves me but she's not supposed to love anyone else. "michael? michael are you alright? baby im so sorry i didnt mean for this to happen, trust me i still wanna work things ou-" i cut her off "stop talking." everything had come back to focus and i could feel my anger running through my veins.
"michael-" she was staring at me and tears were rolling down her face. my anger was slowed a little and all i wanted to do was kiss her and tell her it was okay but i couldnt, she loves someone else and not just me. how could i not be upset? "liv, how could you be in love with someone else and still be in love with me? i just dont understand" "i dont know michael! i dont know okay?! it just kinda happened. maybe its because deep down ive always had feelings for calum, i just never realized. but ive always felt strong feelings for you, ive barely seen anyone else but you. and im not saying id want it any other way, im just saying maybe.. maybe since calum and i finally acted on those feelings, the feelings ive had for him showed up to the surface... i still love you, and i still wanna be with you. i just... know now that theres something there for calum as well." i sighed deeply, i know i made a mistake.. but this wasnt supposed to happen. she wasnt supposed to fall for my best friend... is he even my best friend anymore? he took my girl from me.. how could i stay friends with him now? "i- i just.. i dont even know what to say to you right now liv..." i looked at her, her face was stained with tears and i felt my heart break for the billionth time this week. paris is supposed to be the city of love, instead its tearing my love apart. im being ripped away from my home.. and i dont know what the fuck to do about it.

"michael.. i know you're upset with me, and i understand it... but please dont leave me. i still need you..." she said, trying not to get choked up even more than she already was.

"im not gonna leave you livvy, we've been through so much more than this. and i did even worse than just kissing your best friend. and im insanely sorry for it, you dont even know. we can try to fix this. i dont care what it takes, i want you to be mine forever. if you dont want that, ill be okay. but im gonna do everything i can for you to want it." she nodded and pulled me in for a hug, sobbing into  my chest. "im sorry baby, i didnt mean to. im so sorry" she whimpered, her body was shaking from how hard she was crying. i held her tighter and rubbed her back. "its alright my love, you dont have to be sorry for anything, you cant control the way you feel."

"i know but its my fault, i kissed him. and it wasnt really even to see if i had feelings for him. i was mad at you and.. and i wanted to get back at you. and im so sorry, i didnt want to hurt you i was just so mad and upset..." i felt betrayed, but i know this is the love of my life. we have a somewhat toxic relationship, but i know she's meant for me because she's the only girl ive ever felt at home with.

i teared up and sighed, looking down to the floor. the anger was still running through my veins but i tried to control it because i knew me yelling like i promised her i wouldn't would only make this all worse "its okay livvy, i love you... forever"

"mikey, how can you act like this is okay? i know what i did was wrong, and i know what you did was wrong. ever since we've been here we just keep on hurting each other. i hate it... we havent hurt eachother like this since fucking highschool. we're not kids anymore. we should have at least a little bit more knowledge of what we're doing"

i knew she felt terrible, and i didn't want that.. i took a moment to think about what i should say before pulling her away from my chest and looking at her

"olivia rose odessa... in my entire life of loving you. i have never felt more at home than when im with you. even living in my parents house, never truly felt like home unless you were there with me. you really think im just gonna give up because weve made mistakes? most of them being when we were kids. ever relationship has its flaws and some have more than others. but i mean maybe i should. maybe we should give this up. but any of the times weve broken up and tried to find ourselves in other people... i felt more lost with them than i ever did. but everytime we made it back to each other i felt at home, i knew who i was and i knew who i was going to be and i knew where i would be in the world 10 years later. and of course i didnt expect to be some famous punk-pop-alternative celebrity. not even a little bit. but i knew wherever i was. i would be with you in some way, shape, or form. so yeah liv, i know what we're doing isnt okay. but i also know, youre my soulmate and i couldnt do anything without you. i wouldve never made it to where i am today if i didnt have you in my life. youre my best friend and the love of my fucking life. i dont have a clue where i would be or if i would even be here if it werent for you. sometimes best friends and lovers hurt eachother. sometimes it makes them stronger and sometimes it makes them weaker. is it wrong that i choose to believe we're the type of people it would make stronger? because i know us liv. we're the power couple that makes countless people feel like love is real. hell, youre what made me believe in love in the first place. you wanna know why? because our little talks out on the roof.. when you would be ranting about whatever your parents did to piss you off that day while looking up at the stars. i would be memorizing every part of you and wondering what it would be like to kiss you and run my fingers through your soft hair and wondering how it would feel holding your hands or laying behind you with my arms around your waist as you slept or thinking about what it would be like to hear you whisper 'i love you' in my ear just after you had woken up. and then one day, during one of our little talks i realized. fuck, im in love with this girl. which i didn't ever think it was possible. not to love you because you're quite possibly the most amazing person ive ever met. but i didnt ever think it was possible for me to fall in love. because out of all of the girls i had dated before i met you, they were fake. they just wanted me so they could say they had a boyfriend, and i was always the one they chose if the hotter boys were taken. the point is, yes i'm going to act like this is all okay. because i'm not ready to give this up. i'm not ready to lose my bestfriend. im not ready to lose the love of my fucking life. and if i ever do become ready. i'll be in my fucking deathbed bc i can promise you liv, ill never be ready to give us up."

tears were streaming down her face, "i really hate it when you make me lose my words cause i really don't know what to say right now except i love you so much it's unbelievable. i'm not ready to give us up either baby. and if i ever am, i'll be fucked up on coke or laying right next to you on our shared deathbed. i hope we're still together in the afterlife. i promise you michael, i'll never hurt you the way i did before"

she pressed our foreheads together and sighed "i love you so much more than you'll ever know"

"and ill love you more than ever forever my love" i whispered
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OKAY SO I FINALLY UPDATED AFTER LIKE A BILLION YEARS??!! SORRY I HAVENT BEEN UPDATING. IF MY PARENTS WOULD LET ME HAVE WP ID UPDATE MORE OFTEN BUT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO USE THIS ANYMORE SO IT'S KIND OF HARD 💀💀 ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AND IM REALLY SORRY IT'S NOT AS LONG AS USUAL. I LOVE ALL SM <3333