♥𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 ♥ {𝓜𝓲𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓮𝓵 𝓒𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓭}

we can't do this..*smut*

livs pov (smutttt but if its not good im sorry this is my first time writing it)
i had to talk to calum... i couldnt have the both of them at the same time. and michael... we've been together forever, we're engaged. i cant just leave him... especially not for one of his best friends. i love calum, in more ways than one... but i love michael as well. but i cant love them both...

i texted him and told him i was coming over to his hotel room, he didn't answer so i just walked over and if he wasnt there then i'd come back later. hopefully he's there because otherwise my anxiety just might kill me. i knocked on the door and it opened "that's weird.." i mumbled to myself as i pushed it open the rest of the way. "calum?" i yelled, "cal? are you here?!" i looked around and ended up in front of his bedroom door.. that was the last place to look. it was slightly cracked but there was no noise coming from the other side. i slowly opened the door and peeked through, i realized he was sleeping.
i adored how he looked like a baby when he was sleeping, he just looked so content. his face was squished against the pillow which made his already pouty lips even poutier.
"cal, wake up" i whispered as i lightly pushed his shoulder. "mmmm" he groaned and pulled the blanket above his head, i giggled "cmon cal, i need to talk to you. it's important"
"nooo" he whined "please cal" "fine" he mumbled and pulled the blanket down, sitting up against the bed frame. "whats up lovebug" he said, rubbing his eyes to get rid of the tiredness.
"um... we cant... i- fuck" i stuttered, tearing up. he looked at me confused and patted the spot in front of him, i sat down and he pulled me closer, wrapping his arms around my waist as he nuzzled his head in the crook of my neck. "cal..." i sighed "we cant... we cant see eachother as more than friends anymore..."
he looked up at me with tears in his eyes, "...oh"
"i'm sorry... i just... im still in love with michael... i
love you both but... i cant love you both in the same way..." "yeah" he said, looking away from me "cal?"
"what" he said coldly, still looking away. "um... nevermind.. its nothing. ill just go" i said as i started to get up from the bed. "no." he said grabbing my wrist and pulling me back down onto the bed and flipping me over on my back with him on top of me. "liv... i need you. ive waited so long for you to be mine in more than a friendly way. i finally got that. and yes, i know and i understand that you werent fully mine and you never will be. but i want you. right here right now, i want you. its a bittersweet kind of thing.. but if im going to have you in that way for even just a little while... then i want you right now before you just... leave... and go back to my best friend."
"cal... i understand... and if we were in any other situation like i wasnt in a relationship... then things would be completely different. but i cant be the reason yours and michaels relationship gets ruined just because you dont wanna give me up. and i cant have mine and michaels relationship ruined because i had sex with his best friend. im sorry..."
"fucking hell liv, when are you gonna realize that we were meant to be together from the start?" he said as he pushed himself away from me. i sat up and looked down, "im sorry calum i just-" "shut up! either stay with me or fucking leave liv! and just for the record im not getting mad that you wont have sex with me im just upset that you never realized that wed be the perfect couple, id never cheat on you or do half the shit michael did! you dont fucking realize that yours and michaels relationship is almost as shitty as lukes and you know who"
"you know what calum?! fuck you! out of all the times that ive helped you through your shit you get mad at me for not realizing that we would be good together? guess the fuck what! i realized when you were with layla! we were in fucking middleschool. michael and i were just friends, but you were soooo in love with her that when i told you i liked you, you blew me off and stopped talking to me. thats when me and michael started being more than friends. so guess what! i did fucking realize. but michael was a better friend to me than you ever were because he never left me. even when we broke up he was always fucking there for me. we might have our issues but weve been together for a long ass time so we're bound to have a couple problems. so shut the fuck up about me never realizing and my fucking relationship because if you say one more word im done. im done being your friend and im done being in your life. ill act like you never fucking existed because to be honest, it probably wouldnt make a difference anyways!" i yelled and walked out of his bedroom, slamming the door behind me.
"Liv wait!" he said as i was walking out of the hotel room. "no calum, im done waiting for you to make up excuses just so ill stay around. im done. come find me when you're over being a dick... or dont" i shrugged "i honestly couldnt give less of a fuck at this point." i slammed the door behind me and rushed to mine and michaels room.
"hey b- whats wrong?" michael said rushing over to me as i was walking through the door. "nothing. just had a fight with cal. no big deal." i sighed "hug" he looked at me, eyes filled with concern as he pulled me in for a hug. "are you guys okay?" he asked, "probably not. i dont really care right now." i pulled away "a-are we okay?" he asked, i smiled "what do you think?" i said, looking down and back up as i slipped my fingers under the waistline of his jeans, "mmm i think we're perfectly fine baby" he said and slid his hands down to the back of my thighs, "up" he said, i wrapped my arms around his neck and jumped. he carried me to the bedroom and laid me down gently on the bed as he hovered on top of me, still kissing me. he pulled away "i dont think this is the time baby" i raised an eyebrow, not understanding what he meant "what do you mean?"
he sighed "you just got in a fight with calum and knowing him im assuming its because he doesnt wanna give you up when he just recently got you partially to himself. and im assuming he wanted to have you in a way that would hurt mine and his friendship and our relationship before you left him to be mine again. so... i dont think its a good idea for us to have sex when you probably have a lot going on in that pretty little head of yours. i dont want this whole thing to cloud your wants and shit. and i know we've had sex before but i dont want to feel like im taking advantage of you when youre stressed"
i smiled, he was always so concerned about how i felt. "michael... i love you. so much. maybe you're right.. how bout we just go shower and then watch a movie and cuddle because you got me all heated so now i stink" "okay but um... let me go take care of something first..." he said getting up and walking out of the room. i heard the front door open and shut. i knew he was going to calums but i wasnt too concerned at the moment. I turned on some music and started picking out clothes to put on after my shower. "calum she doesnt wanna talk right now! she didnt even tell me what happened i just know you!" i sighed as i heard michael yelling "i have to talk to her michael. i realize i fucked up. but i have to talk to her" i set the clothes down and ran my fingers through my hair, i could already feel my blood pressure heighten. i opened the bedroom door and stood there as michael tried talking him out of coming into the room. "michael... its fine i can handle him." i sighed, they both looked over at me and i walked over to them, standing next to michael. "calum. i already told you. if youre just gonna keep making excuses for yourself expecting me to stay and listen. im not doing it. ill knock your ass out with the leg of a chair or some shit and drag you back to your hotel room. so either say something that actually matters or get the fuck out and leave me alone."