asters 🌸 | huang renjun.

🌷eleven ; protect her

after finding out about junkai, i feel so tight in my chest .. i went outside to get some fresh air.

i reached the park,where i saw nara back then, i went closer.

and to my surprise, she was there, sniffling, in the wooden bench. it was an early morning,but the weather was gloomy.

I sat near her, not letting out any words.

she look at me, her eyes shows worries.

"don't mind me nara, let it all out" i said while breaking the silence.

a river of tears flowed from her eyes, i, feel like i want to protect her.

"why did you always show up when i need sometime to be alone,renjun?" she asked her voice was hoarse.

"I don't know..maybe i was sent here by some good spirits" i joked.

"renjun" she called me.

"hmmm?" i responded.

"don't panic, okay?"

"okay.?what is it?" she hugged me,i frozed,"please,let's stay like this for a while" i was so taken aback for her sudden action.

coming back to my senses,i wrap my arms around her,drawing circles behind her back. oddly, she flinched when i put my hands behind her back.

"what's wrong?" i asked her. she didn't answer.

I feel little drops of rain against my skin.

"nara..you can come over to my house,mom and dad aren't home because of business trip" i said,inviting her.

i broke the hug, and i cup her face with both of mt hands, I gave her my biggest smile."relax, your heart is stronger than you imagine,nara.. let's go"

she nodded and as we reached my house,she took her jackets off and i gave her some towels to dry her hair.

"nara..is it because of junkai that you cried?" I asked her as i gave her a warm cup of coffee.

"no, not really..how do you know about him though?"

"he is,uh, my cousin" i sighed.

"I know, you've mentioned aunty xing before, didn't know that you knew about our past relationship"

"i found out by asking him what his ex girlfriend name is" I honestly told her.

"he talked about me? funny," she dryly laughed, "i was breaking down because of my sister by the way,step sister, to be precise not because of that man"

"oh,um.. it's okay if you don't wanna talk about it" i told her.

"no, I'll tell you, i just can't keep it anymore" she bitterly chuckled,keeping her hair behind her back, and she show me her neck, which was bruised badly.

"Oh my god nara.. I'm so sorry"

"it's okay, don't be"she smiled and continued,"she hated me because she feels like father loves me more, my dad and her mom divorced eighteen years ago, and then he met my mother, they got married,i was born and when i was around twelve her mother passed away and she had to live with us, my mother treated her like her own daughter, but when they went overseas for business trip and stuff, she used to beat me up." again,her eyes were watery."i don't wanna tell mom or dad because i,myself wanted an elder sister so much,but she threatened me if i told them,she is not afraid of killing me,i just can't anymore..renjun,i don't care if i die,also, junkai makes me feel loved,i trust him so much but the fact that he was cheating on me,, that hurts as hell,my sister laughed her ass off that day when i found out that he left me."

I hugged her,trying my best to comfort her.

after a few minutes.
she was asleep,i let her sleep in the sofa and put blankets over her.

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i woke up and hear renjun talking with someone on the phone.

I'm embarrassed of breaking down in front of him. I should go home soon..

"junkai, you dumbass,try to be more wise and don't just trust everything you heard from people you rarely known"

he's talking to him?

he came and saw me, his eyes widened.

"oh you woke up, want something to eat?" he smiled as i shook my head."ill talk to you later".he hung up the phone.

he sat next to me.

"do you wanna talk to him?"he asked in a calm tone..i do,i wanna ask him why did he want me to suffer after telling him how much he meant to me.

"no"

"nara... honestly,i am ashamed of being his cousin" he paused,"her mom is also worried about his immature behaviors"

"I don't care about him anymore"

"yes you shouldn't, cause, it doesn't mean anything to him either. He told me, after his first love cheated on him,he don't care about love anymore"

"let's change the topic" I have no energy to continue this.

"okay~" he smiled again.

his smile is somehow healing... I don't know why but..i'm jealous of him, he is so beautiful, he wore such perfect smile,his personality is angelic, what a perfect human he is.

"i wish i was a guy"

"why?" he questioned.

"because i want to be like you".

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