the sister of liam payne| zayn malik x harry styles x oc

where we are tour

we started tour for the midnight memories album. harry started to grow his hair. wearing a bandana on his hair. i miss him. im not gonna lie. he moved on though. he dated kendall jenner back in february. its april now and they have broken up but they are on and off. right now its off.

he and i havent spoken since our break up. louis told me to take a break on where do broken hearts go. i co-wrote the song 18 with ed sheeran. its about harry. i couldnt bring myself to finish writing the song. louis promised to help me.

we were currently on the bus writing down lyrics. i was with the songwriters and they were helping me with the song. harry then came in. he headed towards us. "can i look at the lyrics?" he asks me.

i hesitate but i push my little book towards him that are filled with a lot more songs. he skims through it then sits down. he starts jotting down lyrics that came to his mind.

"that should be the first part of the next verse" he says to me and slides the book and the piece of paper to me.

yeah the taste of your lips on the tip of my tongue
is at the top of the list of things i want
mind is running in circles of you and me
anyone in between is the enemy

harry is a very strong songwriter. i smile. i nod my head and write it down. "you are a really good songwriter" i complimented. the other songwriters decided to leave us alone and go help with the others. "thank you" he says.

"how did that come into your mind so quick?" i ask him. he shrugs. "i dont know. its just all of my emotions are bottled up and im glad i wrote that down" he says.

this is the first proper conversation we had since our breakup. "the lyrics are amazing" he compliments. i smile. "where did you get your inspiration from?" he asks. "a broken heart" i said shrugging. he looks sad.

"you wanna write another song?" he asks. "about?" i ask. "maybe that night that i took your innocence away?" he asks playfully. "lets write it with all the boys" i said. "i dont wanna leave them out" i added.

"you remember that night?" i ask him after awhile. he nods. "of course" he says. "it was the night of your 19th birthday. we went to a hotel. not a nasty one, a good one. that was the last spot on your birthday adventure. the hotel room had roses everywhere and candles were lit. i remember how the moonlight was on your face and how your skin glowed. do you regret it?" he says but at the end he asks me. "no i dont regret" i answered him. "you were my first and i will never regret it" i added.

we just sat there. "what happened to us?" he asks. i feel my blood begin to boil. "what do you mean 'what happened to us?' you broke up with me remember. and for what? to go after some model!" i said raising my voice. louis and the boys then appeared in the doorway. "i didnt want to break up with you!" harry said raising his voice as well. "well then why did you do it! why did you break me!" i yelled.

"simon told me to! i didnt want to but simon told me to! he wanted me to break you! something about kendall and i didnt want to do it. i only want you." he yells but then starts to calm down. i closed my eyes. "simon what?" i asked.

"ooohh simon's gonna get it and so are you because you agreed to do it instead of arguing for me" i said calmly ready to go beat harry's ass when zayn and liam hold me back. "go to bed lia" zayn says trying to keep me back from hitting harry. "no!" i shouted.

i stopped once i knew that i couldn't get to harry. "i fucking hate you" i told harry with tears in my eyes. "you dont mean that" he softly says. "no i do mean it" i spit back.

i walked away and went to my bed. i pulled the privacy curtain. i began crying. tears flooded out of my eyes. i grab my phone and pulled up my pictures. i began scrolling. all of the pictures and memories of harry and i take up most of the space in my phone.

i start shaking. why am i letting a guy take over my life? i lay down. my stomach starts rumbling. when was the last time i ate? i don't remember the last time i ate. liam noticed that i lost a lot of weight. i also feel weaker.

i have a show tomorrow. i need to get rest. i turn over and close my eyes. i began to drift off to sleep.

~time skip to the next morning~

"alright show day!" niall yells. i groan and get up. it feels like i only had an hour of sleep. "here is breakfast lia" liam says handing me a plate. i shake my head no. "you need to eat something lia" he says. i shake my head no again and sit down at the table and lay my head down.

my stomach rumbles and everyone hears it. "please eat lia" louis says. i shake my head no. "please for me?" he asks again. i lift my head up and i can see he has tears in his eyes. i look at the plate. "okay" i whisper.