were back on tour. we have a show tonight. i was currently breastfeeding noah ezra. i still cant believe im performing tonight. the management doesnt give a shit and im starting to realize that now.
"you need to start getting ready" louis says pulling the curtain open. i nod my head. "here let me take him" harry appears and grabs the small child into his arms.
"thank you" i said getting up and putting my breast away. i got up to meet lou. "hi honey" she says as i sit in the chair. "if you want i can take care of him" she offers. my eyes light up. management never really told me who was gonna take care of him.
"that would be lovely" i tell her smiling. "but you shouldnt be really doing anything active right now" she says working on my hair. "i know. management doesnt give a shit" i say. "he is in good hands" she says smiling at me through the mirror.
harry walks in with noah ezra. lou finished up doing my hair. "okay honey go get changed into this" she says handing me my outfit for tonight.
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she walks out leaving me to change. harry stands there with the baby in his arms. "are ye seriously jus' gonna go out there in your condition?" he asks me. "i i have to. management will literally kill me if i dont" i said slipping off harry's shirt and put on a corset to smooth things out.
i slip on the dress and carefully sit down to put on the shoes. "i fucking hate the mangement. all the shit that they have put us through" he says taking a seat next to me.
"they literally changed louis. made the whole world think that you are a womanizer at the age of 16 when clearly you arent. zayn is dealing with anxiety and have you noticed the lack of sleep he has gotten. liam im not so sure. niall, they turn off his microphone in the middle of performances or even lower his microphone down" i ranted to harry as i put on my shoes.
"and what about you?" he asks me. "they are making me perform when i should be resting." i said. lou walks in. "its time" she says. harry hands me noah ezra over. i hand him to lou and she melts.
"he is so beautiful" she says looking down at him. lux came running in. she hugs harry's legs very tight. then she goes on to hug mine. she does this before every show.
she runs out to probably find zayn. "good luck" lou tells us. we thank her and harry's arm finds its way around my waist helping me walk. we walk to the backstage area and meet up with the others.
"we will be there with you to hold you" zayn tells me. the boys nod and i thank them. we put our hands in the middle like we always do. "1, 2, 3" i start. "we push" we all say at the same time.
with the help of harry and niall they help me up on stage. one of our songs start. harry guides me onto the stage his arm on my waist the whole time. i look at the crowd and a sign catches my eye.
'LIA PAYNE IS FAT. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY SHE IS HERE AT ALL!"
i look over at zayn who noticed the sign as well because the fan was in the front row. fools gold starts and we take a seat.
niall plays the guitar as he starts to sing his verse.
niall: im like a crow on a wire you're the shining distraction that makes me fly home im like a boat on the water youre the raise on the waves that calm my mind, oh, every time
harry: but i know in my heart you're not a constant star
lia: and yeah, i let you use me from the day that we first met but im not done yet, falling for you fools gold
all: and i knew then, you turned it on for everyone you met but i dont regret falling for you fools gold
~time skip~
we were in the middle of steal my girl. i looked over the signs by many different fans. many saying congratulations to harry and i. zayn was currently helping me. he holds my waist tightly to not let me go.
zayn was pointing out different signs that made us laugh. one sign read 'paul adopt us' like the one from years ago when we were first starting out. we waved to the fans and it looks like they died.
zayn and i look at each other and laugh. i sat most of the time or one of the boys helped me stand. they all took turns tonight helping me up and helping me stand.
our eyes go back to the sign that we first saw entering the stage. we point at it. the girl holding was freaking out because zayn had pointed to her sign. louis passed by. "hey lou hold her please" zayn whispers and louis obliges holding my waist to prop me up.
zayn goes up to the fan and she starts to freak out even more. he gestures towards the sign and she hands him the poster and zayn magically pulls out a marker.
he starts to write on it. he hands it back to her and the fans eyes go wide. she lifts it up for me to see.
'LIA PAYNE IS NOT FAT. LEAVE MY BEST FRIEND ALONE IT ISNT NICE. ALL LOVE, Z' it read.
"thanks mate" he tells louis and grabs a hold of my waist again. louis kisses my cheek playfully and walks away joining liam in probably a water fight.
