Lovely Nights || Zhong Chenle

19

TW || Brief mention of suicide

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I angrily burst through the door of Jungwoo's dorm. Lucas was laying on his bed playing a game on his phone when he quickly glanced at me.

"Hey babe, haven't seen you in a few days." He smirked while looking back down at his phone.

"Where's Jungwoo?"

"Why? Don't want to spend any time with me?" He replied in a suggestive tone.

"Lucas I am not in the mood, now tell me where Jungwoo is."

He noticed the seriousness in my voice and finally looked up, pausing his game.

"What's up with you?"

"It's none of your business." I crossed my arms and glared at him.

"He should be here any minute now. He always comes back to the dorm room before going to his study group." He finally replied. "Now stop staring at me like that, you look like a crazy lady who's about to commit murder."

"If you don't shut up maybe I will." I glared at him.

He frowned and went back to his game, not bothering to talk to me anymore. I paced the room back and forth waiting for Jungwoo to show up. It was an understatement to say that I was furious with him.

The door finally swung open as Jungwoo walked in followed by Ten.

"Hey Y/N, you didn't tell me you were coming." He casually walked passed me and placed his things on his bed.

Ten ruffled my hair before laying down and kicking his feet up on the couch.

I rolled my eyes and stared in Jungwoo's direction. "What? Am I supposed to tell you everything that I do?" I scoffed. "What if I wanted to come and spend some time with Lucas, not you."

Jungwoo furrowed his eyebrows and glared at Lucas.

"Hey don't look at me like that, I'm not a part of any of this." He quickly defended himself.

"Y/N is there something wrong?"

"Is there something wrong?" I repeated in a sarcastic tone. "Yes there is something wrong." I laughed still in disbelief of everything Chenle had told me. "Tell me Jungwoo, am I dead or am I Jungmin's cousin?"

Jungwoo froze in his place, his face full of guilt.

"Listen, I said those things 2 years ago when you were a first year. I didn't think you would ever find out."

I scoffed in disbelief. A small part of me wanted him to say that he never said any of those things, that they were all lies made up by Chenle.

"So it's true." My voice cracked.

"Y/N I had to say that or they would have known. All our classmate were blaming you for Jungmin's death and if they found out you were his sister they would have bullied and harassed you nonstop."

"So instead you made me into the school's social outcast." I laughed as angry tears streamed down my face. "Do you know what it's like to be the school's loser? Do you know what it's like to wonder what you did wrong so that no one wanted to be your friend or even talk to you? Do you know what it's like to be hurt by the one person you thought you could trust? To be manipulated into thinking they actually cared about you only to find out that their intention was to keep hurting you?" I began to cry uncontrollably.

Jungwoo didn't reply. He couldn't even look me in the eyes.

"Of course you don't." I snapped. "Because you were Mr. Popular and you will never know what it's like."

I was so angry I pushed Jungwoo. Ten stood up and pulled me back to keep me from trying to push him again.

"Y/N you need to calm down." His voice was soft as he held my hands in place, slowly backing me away from him.

Jungwoo on the other hand took a step closer to me. "Y/N I was only protecting you. You had already committed one intent on yourself because you felt guilty over Jungmin's death. What would you have done if I had let you hear those rumors? Would you have tried to kill your self again?"

"Shut up." I yelled trying to block out Jungwoo's words.

"It's the truth y/n! Was I supposed to just sit back and watch as other's harassed you into killing yourself? What would I have done if I lost you too?"

"You ended up losing me either way." I broke free from Ten's grip. "I don't need you or your so called protection Jungwoo. I'm done living as the broken innocent girl you created." I walked out without saying another word.

My vision was blurry due to my crying I was barley able to see anything when I walked outside of the dorm building. I was wiping away my tears when I heard the loud ring of a bell.

"Yah! Move out of the way." I looked up and saw a boy about to hit me with his bike.

For some reason I froze and couldn't do anything but close my eyes. When I opened my eyes I was surprised to see Ten standing with his hands around me. He had pulled me out of the way and we were now standing on the grass area across the entrance of the dormitory.

He sighed in relief and ruffled my hair. "You are going to be the death of me kid."

When my eyes met Ten's I couldn't help but breakdown. My ugly sobs were loud enough to catch the attention of everyone walking by.

Ten hugged me close and patted my head. "It's okay, cry it all out." His voice was soft and warm.

When I was finally able to gain control of myself I let go of Ten and wiped away the leftover tears with the sleeve of my uniform shirt.

"Feel better?" He smiled and held my hand.

I vaguely smiled and nodded my head.

"Let's go get you some ice cream then." He chuckled and pulled me along with him.

After a short walk we arrived at a small ice cream shop just outside of the university campus. We were sitting in a booth across from each other quietly enjoying our treats when a sharp sting on my lip caused me to drop the sour gummy worm I had topped my icecream with.

Ten frowned and looked at me. "Is something wrong?"

"I don't know." I shrugged my shoulders. "I suddenly got a stinging pain in my mouth."

Ten leaned in and took a closer look. "It looks like you have a cut on your bottom lip. The sour candy most likely irritated it." He looked back up at me. "Did you hurt yourself earlier?"

I began to wonder how it was possible to cut my own lip when it finally hit me. I placed my finger on the corner of my mouth and traced the area where it hurt. Chenle had bit my lip so hard he actually managed to break skin. I was so angry after meeting with him that I didn't even notice. I never even stopped to think and process the events that had happened earlier that day.

I felt my face flush as I replayed what he did inside my head. I bit my bottom lip in the same place he did.

I was angry at Chenle I couldn't deny that, but I also couldn't deny that a small part of me craved the touch of his lips on mine again. Did that make me crazy?

I shook my head and looked back at Ten. "I think I hurt myself during gym class."

"You have to be more careful." He began to nag me. I slowly zoned him out, losing myself deep in my thoughts when I realized something else. I slapped my cheeks to keep me from screaming out loud.

That was my first kiss!

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