a little thing called love

part nine - i dont give a damn

Iris's POV

"I hate him I hate him!!" I shout out loud at home. I have no desire to continue class today, so I skipped. Whatever happen I don't care

I cry again whenever I think of the incident. I harshly take all the picture of me and burn it down at home. Yes, I was very angry. Some might think it's some stupid joke, but I didn't. it was a hurt to my pride.

Ding dongg..

I heard the bell rings. I wipe out all my tears and take a good look at mirrors, I waited for a while to get rid of my red eyes

I open the door and my jaw drop..

"Fuck you!" I slam the door hard. It was Kaden and I don't want to look at him. He sure have the courage to stand in my front door. I might just kill him now

"Iris! Please listen to me! I didn't do it! I swear! Please let me explain Iris"

"listen to you?! You've already done the obvious! nothing you could explain. Go away and never talk to me, never!" I shout behind the door. I'm sure he hears it. It's loud enough. Then tears started falling down and I was sobbing again. Thank god mom's not here and Evie has school, I don't know how to explain. I don't want to go to school, cant I just get homeschool. I cry and cry on the couch and fall asleep.

"Iris, Iris honey"

"go away go away!"

"honey, wake up. You've got a bad dream"

I felt my body was shaken by someone. Slowly, I open my eyes "huh?? What happen? what time is it?"

"you had a bad dreams, it's past 5 now" thank god it was my mother. I remember my dream but it's not vivid. Of course, it would be about what happen earlier. I never had bad dreams before, and it was in the evening. Shouldn't it come during midnight *sigh

"ohhh, did I say something stupid mom?"

"you just ask me to go away. Is something wrong Iris?" oh no, she thinks something is wrong, I have to cover this up

"everything's fine mom. Don't worry" I gave her the most convincing smile I could produce. I hope she takes it

"if you say so" I was relieve she didn't ask anything more. I had a rough day and I don't think I wanna talk about it just yet

"I'm going back to the café at 8. I'll cook dinner, save some for your sister okay, she's at Aubrey, she'll be back late"

"okay mom" and I try to smile again

I went to my room and checked my phone, I got 10 miscalled from an unknown number and 6 misscalled from Serra, Liz, Mia. I called them back, I'm sure they wanted to know if I'm alright. They soothe me during the incident and ask me to go home to take a rest.

After calling twice, Serra finally answered

"hey"

"don't you hey me. You said that you're gonna call exactly when you reached home! We were all so worried about you!" I put my phone away from my ears, her voice is loud, it could damage my eardrums. I hope she can stop nagging. I was pretty frustrated here

"can you please shut up. I'm getting a headache because of it" I said truthfully. She was silent for a few minute before started talking

"right, sorry. So, how are you? Why didn't you call us? Oh, and I'm on loudspeaker. Mia and Liz is here" I know they're there. We already plan to go to Serra's to study today. Guess that didn't work for me

"yeah, I know. I'm perfectly fine" I lied

"don't you lie to us missy! We know you since forever"

"okay, I cried again and guess what, he came to my house today saying it's not his fault, that just made my day brighter" I said in a flat tone

"what?!" I think it's Mia talking "he came to your house?! That little prick. Haven't he done enough"

"I know, I slam the door right at his face"

"nice going!" I hear Liz shouts from the background

"look, we'll have a further talk about this tomorrow" I was just about to interrupt, she said "and I know you're not going to school. Take your time to heal, if anybody tries anything on you or mock you,we got your back. Remember that. We love you!"

I just replied with "okay, thanks. You guys are the best. Bye" I ended the call as soon as I said that. I was so tired especially with all the things that happens today.

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I wake up the next morning, taking shower as usual. I told my mom I'm not feeling well yesterday, she let me stayed home until I'm feeling better. Im trying to build my confidence again. I would not let that prick take my pride away, I will not stand on his feet. I would build courage so that I can go through high school, graduate and forget about high school. To ask my mom to change school would be too sudden and she will probably have a lot of questions in mind that I don't want to answer. So might as well be confidence in my self. I wont care what others think anymore, I don't give a damn about the love recipe book anymore and so does making myself look pretty, Nate? Well, I just have to forget about him then.