With You // J.G

Chapter 12

Gabrielle's POV

I sit on the sidewalk after ten minutes of walking. I don't even know where I'm going. My feet get tired. I pull out a cigarette and light it. I breathe in the smoke.

I knew Jack could never be nice to me. Was the whole thing a joke? Did he and Kate plan this whole thing? All I know right now is that I hate Jack with all my heart. He's such a dick and I can't believe I ever thought he was different. People disappoint me. Maybe I should just distance myself from everyone. Maybe I should just stop going to school all in all. Maybe I should just end my life.

Someone seems to trip over me, interupting my thoughts. I give him an annoyed look and then I realize it's Hayes. He takes a seat next to me. Instead of being the rude person I am, I take the cigarette and squish it against the pavement then throw it away from us.

"I just need to go on a rant right now. Do you mind?" I shake my head. Hayes tells me about everything. Everything that happened to him. How he almost got sent to jail. About how his father was murdered. About how he feels alone. About how he feels dangerous. He tells me how he always messes up with people he loves. (Example: Amber) He loves her but he kept lying to her and he feels bad. I really do know how he feels. I know what it's like to be sucked into the darkness, to be alone, to feel like such a mistake. I've felt like that for over 10 years and all I want is for it to go away. Too bad it probably won't ever.

Once he finishes his rant something I never thought would ever happen, happens. The words creep up my throat and I can't help it.

"I don't th-think you're d-dangerous." I cover my mouth. Did I just speak? I had forgotten what my voice even sounded like. Hayes looks surprised but I can tell I look way more surprised than him. I clear my throat.

"Did you just talk?" Did I? I think I did. I nod my head.

"I mean-n, y-yes." It feels weird speaking again. I hope this doesn't become a usual thing. My voice is rusty from the 3 years of not speaking. Does he expect me to talk a lot now?

"Uh I d-don't want other p-people to kn-know I'm talking. C-can we keep this a s-secret?" Why am I stuttering? I don't remember stuttering when I was 14. Maybe it's because I haven't talked in a while. I'm just so nervous.

"Yeah definitely. Do you feel comfortable talking a bit more?" he asks. I guess I do. It's not like everyone's here to listen to me talk. I nod.

"I kn-know how y-you feel, Hayes." I feel awkward talking. I can't seem to control the stuttering. My voice cracks at different times and it's quite annoying.

"Enough about me. Tell me about yourself. I know absolutely nothing." Someone actually wants to know something about me?

"Uh I-I have a-abusive parents." I look away from him. I hold in the tears.

"I'm so sorry Gabrielle. I sorta know how you feel if that makes you feel any better." It doesn't make me feel better though. No one deserves to have abusive parents or parents that dont love them.

"My mom doesn't really ever acknowledge me."

"I-I'm sorry H-Hayes." He gives me a small smile. I decide to tell him my story. About my parents, cutting, the way I feel, the reason why I was even a mute in the first place. I even tell him about what just happened with Jack. How I thought he was different, how I'm still wearing his shirt. I just tell him everything. I stutter the whole time though.

"Gabrielle..." his voice trails off. I can't believe I just did that. One second I'm not even talking and the next I'm telling Hayes my whole story.

"I-I have to g-go. I'll s-see you t-tomorrow," I get up and walk in the direction of my house. I feel bad for just leaving Hayes there.

I get home and pull out my journal. I write my heart out for the rest of the night. I like to drown myself in the words I write. It feels good. Better than talking.

I keep my ears alert for any noises. I don't understand why my life had to come to this. Did I do something wrong? I don't understand why my life had to turn into a constant ball of fear and pain.

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~A/N: AHHH OMG SHE JUST TALKED!!!! Go read @bballgurl26 's fanfic ab hayes! It's told from Hayes's POV and what he's thinking when he's talking to Gabrielle and more of what happened to him and his story👍

Please check out my story "Constantly" it would mean a lot!