With You // J.G

Chapter 23

Gabrielle's POV

"I-I'm noth-thing. Ho-ow c-could you want-t m-me to-o be w-with y-you? I-I'm n-not us-sed to b-being-ng loved. I w-wouldn't kn-know wh-what-t to d-do." Jack places his hands on my jawline and his thumbs on my cheeks.

"You're not nothing. I love you. And you don't have to do anything. Just give me a chance." His words sink in as the tears stream down my face. I'm just so scared that he'll leave like everyone else. I'm so scared that he'll hurt me like everyone else. I'm so scared that he'll stay and then take the rest of my pathetic life with him. I'm scared he'll take my feelings and throw them in the trash. I'm just so scared of being hurt.

I also can't grasp that a guy like Jack would love a shitty ass girl like me. My hair is never brushed, I stutter, I barely speak, I don't have any friends. Everything about me is worse than imperfect. I just don't get how he could love someone like me. That's why I'm so sure that he'll leave me.

"Let me prove to you that I love you and I'll never leave you. Please? I'm begging you Gabrielle. One chance. No chances after that. If I screw the tiniest thing up, I'll get out of your life forever."

Mind: Don't do it. He'll break you!

Heart: Don't you love him too? Give it a shot.

Mind: You don't love him! Do not give in.

Heart: He'll bring light to your life. I know it.

This is one of the only times I will ever listen to my heart. It's only because I would do anything for that small light. All these years I've been stuck in the darkness. And when you're in the dark, you lose sense of everything. You'd pretty much do anything for the tiniest bit of light to bring perspective into your life.

As I sob into Jack's shoulder, I slowly nod. His eyes instantly light up as he kisses me on the cheek. I flinch a bit but then practically melt into his arms.

"Thank you," he whispers into my hair. Is this what it feels like to have someone? Someone who cares? I shouldn't get used to this feeling. My mind is still a bit louder than my heart. I'll never get over these doubts; I don't think.

I should just enjoy this feeling of not being alone while it lasts.
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"What are you thinking about?" Jack asks as we watch American Horror Story Asylum on the couch together.

What's the deal with these aliens? It throws the whole plot off. Obviously I was thinking about why Evan Peters has to be so hot.

I keep my mouth closed and shrug.

"I've always wanted to know what goes on in your mind because if not much is coming out here," he signals to his mouth, "I wanna know what's happening in there." Jack points to his forehead. I laugh a bit. I shrug once more. To be honest, I don't even know what I'm thinking about half of the time.

I rest my head on his chest. His heartbeat is steady and same with his breathing. I feel him rest his hand on my waist. I look up at him and his eyebrows are furrowed as if he's really thinking about something.

"Wh-what are y-you th-thinking-ng ab-bout?" I ask.

"I'm just wondering how I got so lucky." I furrow my eyebrows at him confused.

"Lucky to have you. To even have met you. You're everything I ever wanted. I just never expected I'd meet someone like you. But, I did and I'm so thankful." A smile creeps upon my face and I feel something stir in the pit of my stomach. I like this feeling; feeling wanted.

After all these years of feeling like there was no escape and like no one would ever want me, I finally felt something nice. For once in my life, I feel genuinely happy. It's just scary... Not knowing when this is all going to end. It's indefinite. But I know that the ending of this fairy-tale feeling is inevitable. It's bound to end. Just like all good things. I don't want this to end though.
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The next day we have to go to school. Whoops, I meant hell. Katherine drives us in because Jack's license is still suspended.

Jack and I walk in hand in hand and all we get is stares and whispers. Everytime someone says something about us, Jack just pulls me closer and gives me a kiss on the cheek. Each time he kisses me I close my eyes and smile out of pure happiness. Is this really what happiness feels like?
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A few months and dates later, it's spring break. Things have really been looking up for me. The Gilinsky's accepted me for who I am and the fact that Jack and I are dating now. I started to speak to Katherine and David. Did I mention my stuttering has gotten better?

"Oh by the way, we're going to our lakehouse for the break. You wanna come?" Jack asks as we watch the last American Horror Story Coven episode.

"Sure. B-but why a-are you telling me this now?" I ask.

"Because I knew you'd say yes." Jack gives me a small kiss on my nose. I smile.

"When d-do we leave?"

"Tomorrow morning," he says while smiling widely. The tiny crinkles by his eyes are the cutest thing I've ever seen.

Jack looks like he's about to say something but he doesn't say it.

"What is it?" I ask while sitting up. Jack takes a deep breath.

"We need to tell someone about your parents." My stomach drops. My parents? They're out of my life as of now. I raise my eyebrows and then vigorously shake my head.

"No w-we can't-t. Please," I beg.

"You don't have to hide or be scared anymore. You have me and my parents love you. We'll back you up. Please, just tell the police about your parents." If I turn my parents in, they'll find me. They'll hurt me. I can't turn them in. I just wanted to put them in the past, where they belong.

"Jack, please? I'll turn them in when I feel like it's right," I lie.

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