new beginnings // nick.austin

Part 5 :)

⚠️ Warning: talk of abuse and hints of rape ⚠️

After the games had finished, alot of people left the house and went home, but everyone from Sway stayed because they didn't want to get an Uber and they were all too drunk to drive. I was sat on the couch, everyone was having their own little conversations with each other when Addi broke her conversation with Bryce, turned to me and said

Addi: Y/N i've got a question

Y/N: go for it

Addi: Why are just Tony and Ondreaz here and not you?

Y/N: Funny story actually, i didn't know where they were, they left without warning leaving nothing but a post-it note on the kitchen counter saying 'We had to go', (you start crying)they left me in a house with a mother, who would hit me if i did something slightly bad or if she didn't like something i did or even if she was having a bad day. She had loads of boyfriends over the three years Tony and Ondreaz were gone, i'm not even going to begin to explain what they were like and what they did to me because it would have you all in tears. Oh and if you're wandering what if feels like to be in a house with an abusive mother, it is just so painful, so painful to have someone who is supposed to ensure the safety abuse you, i would constantly second guess myself wandering if it was my fault and every fucking time someone would invalidate me, it would make me ask myself if I'm really the one to blame. When you go through something so mentally tormenting and exhausting you simply cannot handle anymore. It chokes you of oxygen and dignity and life and hope and so much more including your own fucking will to live, and when it gets to the point where you can't breathe anymore, you loose all feeling, you become numb to everything, happy, sad, painful. I became numb after 15 months, that's when my world stopped.

I was sobbing, there was silence once again. I couldn't deal with this anymore, i ran out of the house tears streaming down my face, i kept on running to the back of the house and stood looking out at the sunset and let out all my angry with a broken scream, i started sobbing  and thinking
why didn't they come back for me, i know i ignored them and their texts but they should've known, should've realized that something was wrong. but they didn't

Addi's POV:
Y/N ran out and i felt so bad, but i could tell that she was in pain and probably didn't want anyone going to see her especially me or Tony and Ondreaz

Y/N POV:

I fell to my knees next to the pool and sat for a bit, curled up into my knees. I felt someone put their arms wrap around me and looked up to see ...

Noah's POV:

As soon as Y/N  ran out i knew she was in so much pain, i could tell she needed some alone time so i left her and gave everyone in the room a look as well to say "don't follow her". Everyone stayed silent for a couple seconds before looking up in shock as we heard a scream coming from out side. I ran outside and tuned the corner to see Y/N sobbing into her knees, i crept over to her and held her as tight as i could, trying to make her feel safe and comfortable

Y/N's POV:

... Noah, i looked down again.
He grabbed me and held me close to him, tightly, embracing me in the best, most comforting hug i had ever had, he lifted my chin up with his index finger and wiped my tears away with his thumb and kissed the top of my forehead. I looked down again and tried to stop crying but i couldn't help it, i started crying even more.
We didn't talk, he didn't ask questions, just held me, which i loved about him, after about an hour of him holding me, i was finally able to control myself and stopped crying. I felt Noah's arms let go a bit, still holding me but just not as tight anymore. I got out of his grasp and stood up wiping my own tears. He got up with me.
Y/N: Noah?
Noah: yeah?
Y/N: thank you
i said quietly before hugging him again
Noah: i would do anything for you 

i let go and looked up at him and his unforgettable smile, he pulled me in by my waist again kissing my forehead lightly. I started to walk away with Noah trailing behind me, we walked around to the house. I stopped at the front door and took a deep breath in. Noah looked at me to reassure that i was okay, i nodded as he opened the door and i walked in looking down, i could feel everyone's eyes on me. I walked over to the couches and sat down, still facing the ground.
A single tear felt from my eye as i looked up at all the people staring at me. I looked up at the ceiling trying to hold in all my emotions and sniffed quietly. Once again i looked up trying to find someone to talk to or just be around.
I looked around and couldn't find Noah, Addi, Nick or my brothers anywhere, so i walked over to Jaden who was getting a drink from the fridge. He looked at me and closed the fridge door, leaning against it, but he seemed sad himself.
Y/N: you okay, you look upset
Jaden: yeah i'm fine, but the more important question is, are you okay?
Y/N: it's going to take time to heal, i don't believe i will ever be fully okay but i'll get better one day, i just don't know when
Jaden: i hope it's sooner rather than later
Y/N: me too, but everything happens for a reason, right? 

He nodded then pulled me into a tight hug, he pulled away and smiled at each other, i started to walk over by the couches, and laid down trying to go to sleep, i couldn't bare to see Nick tonight. I soon fell asleep.

A/N

Hiiii, i hope you enjoyed as usual but again, if you liked this please please tell me, it would mean the world, this was quite an emotional Part, and took quite a while to write, i had to think about it a lot if you have any suggestions leave them in the comments, i think that how it works, right? anyway

I'm going to go and write a new part because why not. Oh and i'm trying to release one part a day, i hope it works, okay byeeeeeee 💕😊

Word Count : 1143 ♥