new beginnings // nick.austin

Part 18 :)

I opened the door reluctantly and soon sobered up when i walked in to see two people hooking up on the bed, i couldn't quite make out who it was, until they looked over at the door. I was stood frozen in shock at who i was looking at, Jaden fucking Hossler and Nessa the bitch Barret. Josh's girlfriend Nessa. So many things where going through my brain:

Holy shit, Nessa's cheating on Josh! But why, he so sweet, do i tell him? I have to, right? but on my bed, i have to sleep there. those sheets need to be washed ASAP.

Jaden: oh shit, Y/N

Nessa: that's the Y/N everyone is on about, fuck

Y/N: umm i have to ermm, i'm going to go  

I quickly ran out of the room heading back downstairs so start looking for Josh, he needed to know. As i reached the bottom of the stairs i heard my name being called out, i could tell who it was so i ignored it kept trying to look for Josh. The voice kept calling my name, trying to stop me. I walked over to the couches, finally i had found Josh but i had also found someone else. I turned to Josh and was about to speak when i felt someone grab my arm, and began dragging me away, when we stopped i turned around and saw the owner of the voice who was desperately trying to stop me. 

Y/N: what do you want Rockstar

Jaden: you can't do this, he's my best friend and if he found out that i hooked up with his girl, it'll break him

Y/N: but it'll break him more if he finds out that i kept it from him

Jaden began talking again but i ignored it and started walking towards Josh again, when i reached the couches again, i stood in front of Josh took a deep breath and began to talk.

Y/N: Josh i need to talk to you

Josh: umm okay, go ahead

Y/N: it's better if we did it in private, please it's important

Josh: okay, lets go outside

We walked away from the party and headed out the door, he closed it as i prepared for a very difficult discussion.

Y/N: Josh, i don't know how to say this so i'm just going to say it, earlier i went into my room because i needed to go to the bathroom and i sa-

Jaden: Y/N please i'm begging you, don't

Nessa: you seem like a nice person, please 

Josh: Y/N what are they talking about

Y/N: josh, i-umm isawthemhookingup

Josh: what 

He said as his eyes started to tear up

Y/N: Nessa was cheating on you with Jaden, i don't know how long it had going on, or if it was just a one of thing, but i know what i saw, i'm sorry, i knew that it would more if you found out later that i had kept it from you

A single tear fell from his eye

Josh: is this true? nothing? Jaden? Nessa? great, my girlfriend wait actually no my now ex-girlfriend was hooking up with my who was supposed to be my best friend

There was no response from their of them, they just kept on looking at everyone then back to the floor. Although it didn't look like Josh was very upset, i could tell he was holding in his tears.

Josh: i can't believe either of you, Nessa you told me everyday that you loved me, that you would never hurt me, that you would never leave me, i really thought you were the one, the love of my life, but i guess all those times when you said you loved me, that you said you wouldn't do anything to hurt me, it was all a lie. And Jaden, i can't even to begin to wrap my head around why you would do this to me, you know what happened in the last relationship, you know how her cheating on me took a toll on me, how i couldn't even begin to start thinking about dating other people would be like because i was so scared of being hurt like that again, but then it ended up being you that hurt me most, but now that i think about it, it makes complete sense because nothing is forever and i've learnt that.

He let one tear fall down his face before wiping it off and walking back inside, i waiting a couple of seconds to exchange simple glances at Jaden and Nessa before trailing behind him. I couldn't tell if i felt bad for Jaden and Nessa, i know that what they did was wrong and that Josh doesn't deserve any of it but i cant help but think that i am now partly responsible that their relationship with Josh is ruined. When i got back i saw Josh sat back down on the couch talking to Bryce and Griffin, they were laughing and smiling, i could tell that Josh was trying to hold in his emotions, he was putting on a fake smile. He looked over at he, i gave him a sorry smile and he gave one back. I mouthed "i'm sorry" to him, he nodded and mouthed "it's okay, thank you" i gave another smile and we both looked away.

I needed forget everything and have fun, even just for the evening, this was the night i was supposed to be having a good time, getting drunk hanging with my friends.

So i did. I went to the kitchen island to have a drink and found Patty, Calvin, Michael and Paper drinking and having fun, so i went over to them and took Michael's drink out of his hand and downed the whole thing, he looked at me looking sad yet shocked but overall drunk. He stuck out his bottom lip jokingly.

Y/N: payback for all my PopTarts you've eaten

Calvin: i mean she got you there

Michael: shut up you virgin

Paper: ha, and he got you there

We had a few more drinks and laughed for a while before we decided to dance, they were terrible but it was so funny how hard they were trying to i just went along with it, dancing with them. Paper and Calvin were stiff as a board but trying to break dance, Calvin was doing his own version of Ballet, standing on his tip toes and turning in circled with his hands forming a 'o' above his head. Patrick and i looked at each other trying to hold in our laughs, then we heard a thud and looked to where Michael and Paper were before but instead we found them on the floor holding their heads and moaning in pain. Calvin stopped doing 'ballet' and stood next to Patrick and I, we all exchanged glances at one another then looked back at Michael and Paper who had stopped holding their heads and had started to chuckle quietly. Soon we were all laughing our heads off, everyone had stopped what they were doing at looking at us, but we didn't care, we just kept laughing. After a while everyone had stopped looking at us and went back to their conversations, our laughs began to slow down eventually stopping fully as Calvin and Patty helped them up. We all had a few more drinks and danced a bit more.

As i began to sober up, i thought it would be a good idea to talk to Josh, i couldn't help but feel bad about earlier, i walked over to the couch to see if he was still there which he was, still talking to Bryce and Griffin, the whole of the Sway House was on the couches having their own conversations, but Noah wasn't, he was making out with some girl on the couch. It made me angry and sad and i know that i told him whatever was going on between us had to stop, but it still hurts, my feelings for him are still somewhere inside my mind. There is no off switch for your feelings. I was so overwhelmed with everything that had happened since i moved to LA, i could feel myself tearing up so i ran through the crowd and upstairs as fast as i could so no one would notice. As i rushed upstairs i couldn't help but think about my father and my mother and all her boyfriends, i was in so much pain i was almost numb. 

I didn't want to feel anymore. 

A/N

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