new beginnings // nick.austin

Part 24 :)

Y/N's Pov:

I felt weak, weaker than i had ever felt before but it felt good to be free.
I was in some sort of out of body experience, i could see my body on the bed, wires strapped up to me, bandages of my wrists, doctors surrounding my bed desperately trying to save me, but i knew i was gone and i was ok with it. I could move around but it wasn't my body moving, it was my soul.
I stood in the corner of the room, watching my lifeless body desperately trying to be saved, it was surprising peaceful to watch. Soon the doctors stopped and called out

Doctor: time of death 3:24am

With that they left the room, i walked over and looked at my body, a smile gently crawled onto my face.
I could faintly hear my name being spoken next door, but who was it. I went to investigate so i left the room and entered the room next to mine, 217, as i walked in i could hear a doctor speaking.

Doctor: ok, the fast beeping you heard was caused my a seizure, her body was already weak and in a coma, so she didn't feel anything, but as her body was so weak, she couldn't take it, i'm sorry but y/n didn't survive

I moved closer to see everyone, Dre, Tony, Kouvr, Noah, Jaden, Mia, Avani, everyone huddled up hugging each other crying. It bring a tear to my eye, but what i did was for the best.
I continued watch until i realised something and asked myself the question of, why are they in a hospital room, which then led to realise something else, where is Teddy Bear, then i saw it.
Nick sitting on a hospital bed crying his eyes out with cuts all over his body and face. I walked closer to him and began hearing his soft yet angry voice speak

Nick: this is all my fault, if it weren't for me she would be alive right now, i killed her, fuck sake why do i have to be such a dick, she's still be alive right now if i wasn't such a shitty person, it should've been me not her she doesn't deserve any of this

Tears slowly came to my eyes. As i stood next to him listening to him quietly blame himself for what i did, i couldn't help but let a tiny amount of regret enter my soul. I didn't like seeing him like this blaming himself for what i've done, what i've done to help everyone.
I stood next to his bed watching him and all my friends, my chosen family, the people that i love more than anything mourning over the fact that i was gone. 

I stayed in that room for hours watching tears stream down people's faces, the doctors coming in to check on Nick and then finally telling everyone to leave so he could get rest. I watched silently as everyone left saying goodbyes and then leaving closing the door behind them. As soon as the door closed i heard faint sobs slowly growing louder and louder, looking towards the noise i could see Nick with his knees in the chest, his head buried in between his legs. I let a tears roll down my face as his sobs got louder, more and more pain noticeably showing now.
Fuck, it hurts to see the one you love most in so much pain because of something that isn't their fault, because of something that wasn't even in their control. He finally pulled his face up from his legs and removed his knees from his chest, laying down, his eyes slowly closing. I got down and knelt nest to his bed, just observing as a few stray tears fell and he drifted into a deep slumber that he didn't know he desperately needed. When he seemed most peaceful i began to stroke his hair and talk to him, to speak my mind, tell him everything i didn't get to tell him in the letter.

y/n: hey teddy bear, it's me, so i have some good news and some bad news. The good news is i'm gone and i'm safe and i'll always be watching you. The bad news is, i can see you're hurting and it kills me to see you like this. I know it must suck beyond words, but i'm so damn lucky and greatful for the short time we had together. Our time was so full of love, joy and every ounce of energy i've ever had in me. Even though our time was shorter than we both would've liked it to be, i need you to know that i love you so much and i'm so grateful for everything you've done for me. I didn't everything i could to stop myself from what i did, i held it off for so long, hoping that there was even a hint of light at the end of the tunnel. You were that light, but it just got too much for me to handle in the end. Please don't think of me with pity or sadness, think of only the time we were smiling and laughing, those incredible memories that i would do anything to live through again, there all with you, and so am i. Don't think for a second that i'm in heaven, i'm here with you and everyone else. I will always be with you. I was unbelievably lucky to spend my last days with you, even though we argued and fought, please don't forgot those moments because i know that i won't. It breaks my heart to have to say goodbye, if it's half as sad for you as it is for me, and i can only hope that it isn't. I know that if you stop for a second and look hard enough, i'll be there, you'll see me, i know you will. I love you more than words could even begin to explain, i don't think i ever said it to you but i do, i love you so so so much. But for now i have to say one last thing. I'll see you soon teddy bear, goodbye

I stood up, moved his hair out of his face and kissed him lightly on the forehead before turning and waking away, towards the door. I took one last look at him in his bed before opening the door and walking out.
I'm going to miss you

???: y/n

A/N

yo, it's me, i know it feel forever since i updated but i couldn't bring myself to do it, i didn't want the story to end but i didn't know how to continue it, so i think this is it, unless i make a second book, possibly about her coming back, maybe, i dont know yet. Anyway i'm so sorry for leaving you all without a proper ending, but i think this is the end of this book, thank you for all the support and love i've got from writing this. Love you all, peace ✌🏼

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