To the stars - Sunstreaker fanfiction -

Chapter 12: food

I was cooking for both twins while they were watching TV or what. As I was done I placed it on the table and Sideswipe was the first one to arrive. He flopped in the chair and wanted to grab, which was totally fine with me, but his brother slapped him so hard he fell or the chair.

"Who says you can have first!" Sunstreaker sneered. I quietly sat down. I knew why he was doing it, he thinks there's not enough and since they kinda starved him for two years, he's scared he can't get any if his brother takes first. He glared at me as well, so I simply looked down in submission.

Sideswipe got up and sat down again. "Where was that for?" He whined. Sunstreaker stabbed his knife in the table, making me and Sideswipe flinch. "You get if I am done!" He hissed. "But I would never take everything—" he stopped his sentence when Sunstreaker lips curled in a scowl.

"Alright... alright,"

Sunstreaker took first and most of it, what was left did I share with Sideswipe since Sunstreaker filled my plate when he was done with himself. Sideswipe stared at the small piece of food on his plate before looking at his brother.

He said nothing and we ate in silence. Sunstreaker was done fast, not even 10 minutes. Sideswipe and I hurried up a bit since Sunstreaker was inpatient. After dinner, Sideswipe was a bit upset and decided to help me.

"You're okay?"

He nodded and sighed "yeah... he changed," he muttered. "Of course he changed, what do you think after two years locked up in a dark basement and they barely fed him, of course he wants to have food first and the most if it," I said quietly while cleaning the plates. "It results that I am still hungry," he said. I sighed softly, rubbing over his tummy "wanna have some scrambled eggs?"

Sideswipe nodded while licking his lips. While I was cooking, Sunstreaker walked in, apparently smelling it. "Why are you cooking again?" He asked, while flashing his brother a glare. "Still hungry," the silvery mech mumbled.

"Don't give it to him! Now he can feel what I had feel for two long years! Because you set me up! You deserve to feel it and if I could give you a punishment then I would lock you up in the brig for the same time as I was! Alone, chained, abounded, hurt, tortured, starving and wounded!" He snarled while walking closer to his brother that scooted away from him quickly.

"I can't believe a simple human femme cares more about me then my own twin brother!" He spat. "At least she's loyal to me! I can't really say that about you! Dumb animal! Now get out of the fucking kitchen before I decided to stab you!" He spat chasing his brother away.

I turned around and grabbed Sunstreaker, leaning against the kitchen while wrapping my arms around his waist. "What's the matter with you, handsome... why are you so aggressive and grumpy?"

He sighed and rested his forehead against my shoulder. "He annoys me," he sulked. I run my fingers through his silky blonde hair. "Why can't he be the same you are? Why can't he actually care about me,"

"He does care about you, Streaker... he really does. It's just your feeling that tells you wrong..." I murmured. He looked up and I softly thumbed his cheek. He grabbed my hips and pulled me on the kitchen counter. I wrapped my legs around his and looked at him.

"Please give him a change..."

He sighed and something about his way of breathing and the noise he uttered that looked like a growl caused me to shiver. He slightly tightened his grip on me, it was in a lustful way, I don't know what it was but something was making him crazy, I hadn't seen it on him before and I know he's good with keeping his lust feelings under control.

He looked back into my eyes, his icy blue eyes were flickering violently. He pulled away from me and grabbed the plate and scrambled eggs I had made for Sideswipe.

((Sideswipe's P.O.V))
I don't know what had gotten my brother but it upset me a lot. I looked up when he walked in and something told me it was off. He sat down with the plate the femme made for me and I really wanted it. I swear, if he's gonna eat this in front of me and tell me how delicious it is... I am gonna leave.

"You want this don't you?" He asked. I gave a small nod. "I am willing to give it to you— but only if you stay over for the night," he said. I nodded "sure..."
He handed me the plate and left. Later that evening, Skylar told me where I could stay and I took a shower to clear my mind but was interrupted by someone. I turned around to face my brother. I hit the wall with a yelp. "What are you doing here?" I asked shocked. "Taking a shower,"

"Seriously! What's the matter with you?" I asked as I started washing my hair. "Because of you... I have had feelings over the last two years that drove me crazy!" He snapped quietly as he grabbed the shampoo from me. "You mean you're horny?" I asked.

"Look... you can't blame me for everything..."
"Who was the main cause I ended up there, Sideswipe!"
"What you did was wrong! We are here to protect the humans, Sunstreaker... not kill them,""

"I don't give a fuck about humans... only whats the best for me... and you failed me so horrible, that I have dreamed off killing you... ripping your spark out and I would have done it if I wouldn't die from killing you..." he snapped.

It caused me to shiver "At the beginning I was hoping to see you, to get some support and comforting words from you cause you know how horrible it is to be locked up and you didn't even cane to visit me for two fragging years! Like you forgot about me! Don't forget who saved your ass more then once and gave you Energon! I have put my life in danger to safe yours! I got injured in the pits to safe you and make sure you're okay! You're such an horrible brother!"

"That's the past, Sunstreaker... please,"

"Would you forgive me if I did the same to you?" He coldly snarled. "And trying to take 'my' food, that what the femme made for me," he growled. I grabbed him and pinned him the wall. "Look! I am sorry for what I did okay! But we can start over and forget about what happened!" I said.

"Don't you see someone else replaced you?" He asked and it really broke my spark and almost caused me to cry. Because I still love him and he's my brother. He pushed me aside and exited the shower stall. "You can't do this to me!"

I followed him "you can't just burst in, break my spark with your mean comments and leave like that!" I snapped, feeling the tears welling up. "Who broke who's spark, Sideswipe!" He spat as he turned around. "You hurt me! I didn't hurt you... who abounded me like our parents for two years, you're not any better then them!" He spat. I instantly grabbed him and hugged him so tightly, he groaned before pushing him on my bed.

"I just don't know what else I can do to make it up..." I said desperately while laying on top off him, holding him tightly. I didn't want him to leave and make me even more upset. I just got him back. "Sideswipe get off me,"

I looked him in the eyes "you can't do this to me, Streaker! You can't—"
"Get the hell off me!" He hissed furiously. He pushed me away with a lot of force, grabbing his clothes. "Stupid mech! You ruined it with me and don't think I will ever trust you again!" With that he slammed the door