Love Alphabet

Y = Yearning

Y = Yearning

One year was too much, at first it was kind of easy, at least for Phana, he was there, in a new place, new friends, new things to learn, and Ming felt like he was stuck, of course he enjoyed spent time with P'Forth and Wayo, but some days when he got home at night, the house was alone, and Pha's things felt like some kind of memory, he hated those days. Feeling like he was lost, drifting away. Left behind...

It was 6 P.M., and Ming was watching photos on his phone, one more hour and he could call Pha and say good morning to him. Ming was lonely without his P there; so much that he'd barely even left their house, the cast on his arm had to stay for another six weeks, Phana was supposed to be back in four. He stopped staying at Forth's, it was nice but he needed his own space, and he didn't want him to note that he wasn't sleeping as usual. When he did try to go to bed at night, he only got about an hour or so of rest before waking up because he was uncomfortable with the cast. Pha was starting to worry about him more, he could tell when he saw him on the video calls that he wasn't doing so well; a longing look in his eyes.

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Beam and Kit got back a few days ago, and they had been trying to get him out of the house and outside to go do things with them, but nothing was working. He keep saying that he was tired, and he really was, but he didn't have the mood to go and have fun, which was stupid, because Pha would be back in a few days, he should feel joyous, but it seemed that as the day got closer, the need to be able to touch Phana got bigger and unmanageable, he wasn't even comfortable in his own skin.

"I can't believe that tomorrow i'll be there!, can't wait to get back to you" Pha said glowing with happiness

"Be sure to rest enough on the plane na" Ming instructed, he should be just as happy as his P, but he couldn't really shake the knot that had formed in his throat as soon as he saw Phana face on the phone

"Ming?"

"I got to go! I'll be there at the airport, with all the others, they want to see you too. I love you"

"Ok, love you too"

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The ride in his car was overtaxing, everything felt wrong, he was to hot even with the ac on full blast, Wayo was with him, and Kit, Forth and Beam in another car

"Wow a year already!, are you excited to see Pha again?"

"Of course"

"Then why do you look like you are walking to your own dead?"

"I don't! I just, my stomach feels weird"

"Are you nervous?"

"I shouldn't, right? But i don't know what's wrong with me"

"Nothing is wrong, you are anxious that's all, it's been a while since you saw him in person, of course you would feel like this" Wayo keep trying to distract him putting music and talking about anything, for Ming it was a blur, he didn't even know how did he get them to the airport, one moment he was with Wayo in the car, the next he was standing in front of the arrival door, how the hell didn't i crash!?

"Hey! He is there!!" pointed Beam jumping up and down

Ming watched him, walking among the people, and when he saw them, he almost ran, directly at him, he soon felt being spun around in a tight hug, feet up the ground, and then he was being kissed, both of Pha hands in cradling his face, he responded at the kiss with the same enthusiasm. He was the one that had stayed, but in this moment, with Pha surrounding him, it was like he was the one coming home.

The wait was over...

Phana kissed him again, before he was pulled to hug his friends, Ming was losing his mind, he had just kissed and touched him, and he felt like he needed him again, he had identified the feeling as soon as he looked at Pha, yearning...

"Ming" Wayo called quietly at his side "your hands are shaking"

Phana looked back at him and worry painted his face, he looked at Ming slowly, he was slightly thinner, bags under his eyes hiding under makeup, his eyes were full of tears, he crushed him against his chest as a sob escaped, the others gave them as much privacy as you can in an airport

"Mingkwan" he spoke softly in his ear "you are shaking all over pretty boy" he murmured sliding his hands up and down his back, he tried to put a little space to between them to see his face but a whine came out of his boyfriend who pulled him closer, like he wanted to merge their bodies. "It's ok Ming, i'm here now" evidently his boyfriend needed time alone with him, "did you drive here Ming?" he asked but got no answer just a nose rubbing his neck, he kept his embrace while turning to see their friends, Wayo came over slowly.

"I think is for the best if we leave the welcome dinner for tomorrow, i'm pretty tired"

"Yeah sure P'Pha, i should probably drive you guys back, but Ming has the keys, P'Forth got your luggage"

Pha slides a hand to Ming's pocket to retrieve the key.

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It's almost one hour later that Ming seamed to recover some sense, he was being cuddled by Phana on their bed, holding hands

"Hi"

"Hi"

"I'm sorry, i didn't know that was going to happen"

"Did you miss me that much?" Phana's question was met with silence "i bought us something" he moved a little to reach inside a bag that was near him, Ming turned around so he could snuggle some more "i was thinking that i wanted something, that could let people know we are together, and i wanted to give it to you with dinner and flowers, but this is nice, having you here with me on bed is as perfect as any expensive date, so... Mingkwan..." he made a pause to look at him in the eyes and pulled the little box of the bag, slowly opened it to show him "would you wear this for me?" there was a beautiful pair of rings, he took one out of it.

Ming was a breath away from crying again, and nodded fast pulling Phana as close to him as the cast in his arm allowed, Pha indulged him a moment more before pulling his hand and placing the ring on his finger, he looked at it mesmerized and kissed that finger.

"I have one to match!" he smiled before placing the other on Ming's hand, so his moon could put it on him, with jittery hands the engineer put the ring on Phana's finger

"Is this what getting married feels?" he laughed for the first time "i like it"

"Hmm, i'm already your husband, and you are mine" answered Pha, rearranging their positions

"Take your clothes out, i want to feel your skin" Ming was already opening his own shirt, and then paused when Pha didn't move "you don't want to-?" he never finished the sentence because his mouth was attacked ferociously.

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AN: Im a little sad that this is almost finished...