𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍 𝙸𝚜 𝚄𝚐𝚕𝚢 (Frerard)

Chapter 6: I Couldn't Without You

[Frank]

As I sat down on the couch, I swung my backpack around and let it fall to the ground. I looked up and saw Gerard speaking to his brother about something I couldn't quite make out. After they finished talking, Mikey nodded his head and went upstairs. I sat back and let out a general sigh.

"What were you saying to Mikey?" I asked when Gerard sat down next to me.

"Oh, I was just reminding him that he should be down here and ready by 5:20 so we can arrive at Ashley's house on time," Gerard replied.

"Wait what?" I wondered aloud. Why was Mikey going to Ashley's house?

"Oh, sorry I didn't tell you," Gerard lightly smacked his head. "Ashley's little brother, Sevian, has a birthday party today at 5:30."

"Oh nice," I said as I nodded. "Uhh, ssso should I leave when you two need to head out?" I asked anxiously.

"No, it's fine. You can stay in my house if you want. You'll just need to wait for a little while for me to get back and also when I need to walk him back home. Unless you decide to leave before I pick him up," Gerard assured.

"Actually, I think I might stay over tonight. If– if that's ok with you and your dad. And Mikey," I asked with my head down. I was still shaken by what happened this morning.

"Yeah, of course that's ok. You know my dad's fine with it, remember? And Mikey will have to suck it up if he has a problem with it like last time. Frankie, please tell me what's going on," Gerard frowned at me worriedly.

"I know I know. I– I mean I just don't wanna cause any trouble for you guys and I don't wanna third wheel Mikey again. B– but also because I don't wanna go home. It's just, this morning my mom... she..." I paused, shuddering at the images that replayed in my head.

"What?" Gerard asked, taking my hand into his. "Did she threaten you again? Did she kick you out? Did your dad hit you? Was it your brother?" he asked anxiously.

"N- no," I stuttered. "My dad got bad drunk again. I didn't sleep at all last night because he started drinking a lot at like 3am a– and at first he just said really mean things to all of us," I looked down. There was no way I could continue to say all of this while looking directly at my boyfriend. "But then when my mom tried to calm him down hhhe got furious and started yelling. She tried to stop him but he– he pushed her into the cabinet really hard a– and the glass shattered and sh– she got cut really badly there was blood. I– I– then my dad grabbed me and threw me into her which hurt her even more aand s– said it was my fault and was like 'look what you did to her.' Then my brother exploded at me because I– I accidentally hurt her but it wasn't my fault! And he th– threw me on the wall and he kept shoving me against the wall... I– I– I..." my words spilled out so fast as I recalled my morning. In the corner of my eye, I saw Gerard open his mouth to speak but my words started to cut him off.

"Gerard, I... I still love my mom. There are still good times and, well also because she's my mom. I k– kinda feel like they think I don't love her anymore because I'm always distancing myself from her since she takes everything out on me. But the truth is, I know she's not like that deep in her heart so seeing her like that..." I looked up at Gerard. "It hurt me a lot. And when my dad threw me into her... I was just... the whole thing... I– my mind– I was petrified. I didn't– I– it was like my whole mind and body stopped working. I was tensed up the whole time. I don't know how to explain a– any of this. I'm sore right now. My whole body is. I didn't even feel the pain when my brother hit me against the wall. I was just so– is there a word stronger than 'shocked' cause' I was just so..." I paused momentarily to let my head fall into my hands. "And then I saw my dad coming over t– to me and I knew he was gonna grab me and do something so while Jax was hitting me I don't know how b– but I somehow escaped and I ran out the door. But then I– I realized I didn't get my backpack so I had to go back and get it. I used the fence to get up to my window because I didn't want to go through the door cause' y'know... and after I jumped back down Lois ran over to me and I didn't wanna leave her with them but I didn't wanna cause any trouble but I– I– I can't believe I just left my mom like that. I should've stayed and helped her. I'm such a coward! The last time I saw her no one was h– helping her and all the blood... coming from her... I– I– c– can't–"