Vapor

Chapter Four

Hey guys! Sorry for not updating yesterday, I was exhausted!!

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I didn't stick around long after that. I had promised my mom I would be home for dinner and knowing my dad, he could probably use some help cooking. When I walked into the house, it was a little too quiet. I could see my dad arguing on the phone in the backyard and Sydney was nowhere to be found. I let out a sigh and pulled the defrosted chicken out of the fridge. I turned on the kitchen lights and started. Chicken Parmesan was easy enough for me to get done before mom was home.

I was almost done cooking when my dad walked back inside. He seemed panicked as he walked into the kitchen. When he saw me, his whole body relaxed. He hugged me and placed a kiss on my forehead, saying I was a life saver. I smiled as he told me he would finish up. I let him do the rest and went outside to look for Syd. I glanced over at Topper's yard and saw her over there talking to Top. I made my way over.

"Hey A," he said. I smiled and greeted him. Syd gave me a look telling me to go away, which made me laugh. It was obvious that she had a little crush on Top too. "You coming to Kelse's tonight?"

"I don't know yet," I said. I had thought about it a little bit, but I wasn't sure if I was in the mood for a party.

"C'mon," he said. "I'll even drive you."

"Can I come?" Syd asked. I told her no. She asked why not and I rolled my eyes. I was not ready for one of her meltdowns right now. I let out a sigh as she began to tell me that she never got to do anything and that her life sucks. I told her to go help dad with dinner and she stormed off. I apologized for her behavior and told him I would think about going.

"C'mon Adelaide," he said. The way he looked at me made my heart pound. "Live a little." "Fine," I said. How could I say no to him. I smiled and told him I would be ready by 8. I walked back over to my yard and heard my mom's car pull into the driveway. I walked around front and asked her how her day was. She ignored me and asked me how JJ was. I told her that he was fine and helped her carry some things into the house. I didn't really want to talk about JJ because then I would have to talk about what happened that day.

The rest of the night went smoothly. I ate dinner with the family and then went to take a shower. I slipped on a black tanktop and white jean skirt. I looked at myself and tried to comprehend why I was trying to look nice for someone who was dating a good friend of mine. Did that make me a shitty person? I walked downstairs and walked over to Topper's yard. He was waiting by his jeep and told me to get in. I smiled and took the passenger seat. He turned on the radio and drove over to Kelse's house.

The party was busier than I thought it would be. It was packed with people and they were already getting rowdy. I looked around and saw Sarah. Topper immediately made his way over to her and I decided to grab a drink. I grabbed a can of beer and opened it up. I scanned the crowd and saw a bunch of kids I knew.

Over the next hour I tried to enjoy myself. I tried really hard to get into the party mood, but it wasn't my thing. I wasn't a huge fan of them. I prefer to know my surroundings and enjoy the company of just a couple people. I felt the alcohol loosen me up a little bit though.

I walked around the living room, dodging the couples who were dancing. I felt someone snag me hand and pull me towards them. I stumbled forwards and into a chest. I looked up to see Rafe Cameron. It's not that I didn't like Rafe, but something about him rubbed me the wrong way. Maybe it was that I knew he dealt. Maybe it was that I knew he did coke. I couldn't say for sure though. He seemed like he wanted to dance. I decided to humor him for a little bit and we danced. He got a little too handsy though and I told him I was going to go get another drink. I could tell he followed me. I felt his lips make contact with my neck as I grabbed my drink.

"You should come out more, A," he whispered. I turned around to face him and watched as he leaned in to kiss me. I pushed him away gently. I wasn't looking to hook up with him. He gave me a look before rolling his eyes at me. I was uncomfortable and needed some air. I walked quickly to the backyard and sat down. Not long after I got out there, Topper came out sighing.

"Hey," I said.

"Jesus Christ, A," he said, jumping a bit. "Sorry I didn't know you were out here."

I apologized as he sat down next to me. He seemed like something was bothering him. I knew it had to be Sarah, but I didn't really want to know. It killed me when he talked about her. I knew I had to be a good friend and ask though. He told me about how there was this space between them, how he was in love with her and he wanted her to love him too. He was moving so fast with her, but he didn't see that. I told him that maybe she just isn't ready to move so fast. I told him to slow down a bit and he nodded. I wasn't getting through to him though.

"So what's wrong with you? You looked like you were having fun," he said.

I told him how I didn't really like parties, but he wasn't buying it. I told him that I didn't feel good. Once again, he didn't believe me. I finally told him about Rafe and he just stared at me.

"He can be assertive at times," Top said, making excuses for his friend. I looked away from him and let my shoulders slouch.

"You don't get it," I said. "I didn't want him to be my first kiss." I felt my cheeks flush up in embarrassment. I watched as he looked at me with shock.

"You've never had your first kiss?" he asked. I shook my head as he chuckled a little bit. I shoved him, feelings hurt. "It's just a kiss. You'll have many in your life. Here."

I felt his hand turn my face towards his. As I took a closer look at him, I could tell he was fairly intoxicated. I closed my eyes as he pressed his lips against mine. I was so shocked at first that I didn't react, but then I melted into it. He pulled away and laid back.

"Don't tell Sarah, kay?" he said. "I don't want her to take it the wrong way. It was just a kiss, basically nothing."

It was just a kiss to him, but it was so much more for me. I looked at the dumb smirk on his face and suddenly felt upset. He had just taken my first kiss like it was nothing. It wasn't nothing to me. I got up, frustrated and confused. I listened to him say my name. I ignored him and walked back into the party. The music was too loud and my anxiety began to build up. I walked quickly out the front door and sighed, realizing he was my ride here. I felt like screaming, but kept my cool as I walked all the way back to my house. I was tired and exhausted, but most of all I was confused. I snuck into the house and listened to Syd taunt me about coming home already. I just told her to shut up and went to my room. I collapsed onto my bed and thought about what happened. How could he be so insensitive? JJ never would've done that.

"Oh my God!" I yelled as JJ filled my mind. I was not about to go down this path again. I listened to my mom knock on my door and ask if I was okay. "I'm fine."

I sighed and covered my face with a pillow, internally screaming my lungs out. I was not about to go back to who I was two years ago. I was not going to go back to being in love with JJ Maybank.