Caskett ~ All I need

chapter 6

Kates PoV
"May I have this dance?"
His hand is still there. Shaking. Is he nervous or drunk? Somehow she asked that question out loud. She didn't want to but whoups, he was not the only one who drank too much. She felt relaxed as if nothing could ever happen to them as if they could be like that forever. She did not feel afraid to say what's in her mind. This is not good... I could say the wrong things...

Castle looked at her. He seemed surprised and a bit hurt 'cause she did not answer to his question. But this lasted only for a moment and his poker face came back. Kate did not even know if this was true or if she just imagined that short look.
He tried to smile and answered: "Both." Beckett smiled: "Yeah... I guess same... wellll at least I AM drunk..." "I did not know that this can be possible." he said.    "What?"
"That Miss What-even-is-fun? can be drunk." Beckett smiled: "You have no idea Caaastle" He came closer when he said: "Then show me"

She could smell him. He smelled good. Like him. And alcohol. Guess it is not that different from my smell... Even though the alcohol did his thing Beckett was aware of what she was doing and could not just ... what did he want her to show him? He knows that I am drunk. Maybe he wants me to show him that I can have fun? But he must know that I can have fun if I want to... I mean just look at me, we just jumped around here... Exremely stupid decesion Kate, STUPID.

He still looked at her. Waiting. Finally she found herself saying: "Castle, it is getting late. I think I should ... go..."

"Oh... Alright. Should I call you a cab?"
"Uh no thanks. Uhm you need any help cleaning up or...?"
"No. Just go Detective. G'night.
"Ni-Night Castle."

She stood up and went outside. Finally she allowed herself to breath again. To breath the cold air. She took out her phone to call a cab and noticed that she was shaking. It is cold, but not THAT cold. I like it, it's clearing my mind... What the hell was that? He was polite but cold... Did I say something wrong? Could I really have hurt him?

She tried to find the right number but her hands were still shaking.
Calm down Kate. Nothing happened, ok? You're drunk, you need to sleep and tomorrow everything is alright again, ok?
Finally she could manage to call a cab and in less then 3 minutes one came. In that time waiting outside she did not know what to do and the only thing she knew was, that if Castle came outside to wait with her...

SHUT UP.

Her thoughts were killing her. No, these are not my thoughts! It- It is just the alcohol... she said to herself in the cab while she was looking outside the window.

Sooo, this is the 6th chapter from my story and as I said it is slowburn. I tried to show how Beckett struggels with her thoughts, with the wall inside her and her growing love for Castle. Let's see what is happening next! I would looove to see some comments and votes💛