ACCIDENTAL

- thirty nine -

time - 11:00AM
day - february 5th

lights.

always illuminating the dark skies as the night progresses. everyday, often the same as yesterday that every second spent, i know what happens next. exhausting as it is, nothing's new.

rain starts dripping from the grey skies and i knew that i have not brought any umbrellas along. as my pace was about to quicken, a sudden halt of the rain did not drop nor drizzle onto my shoulders. i looked up and an umbrella was sheltering me.

i turned around and found him, looking at me with a feeling of abandonment. the way his eyes stared to how his hair was wet. i wanted to escape him.

"jiyeon, c-come back."

because, simply because falling in love with him was the biggest mistake of my life.

"c-changkyun..." i ran into his arms and embraced him. tears poured from my eyes and began to sob. his free arm wraps around mine mumbling little sorries and telling me that it's was his fault for taking his frustration out on me.

"i just didn't want to lose joonwoo... and i know for sure that i didn't want to lose you. cause jiyeon... i- i love you." i gaze up at him, who was staring at me with that look in his eyes, that he meant it. he cups my face, with his eyes almost in tears.

"i didn't want myself to get into this mess." i said. "i simply accepted for joonwoo." i halted. "but why did i end up falling for you? and loving joonwoo like a son? why did i think that we were going to have this future together?"

"i thought that too."

"but we have to bring joonwoo back to his parents..." i said, digging my face into his hand.

"we'll start a future together." changkyun blurts out. "we can have as many kids as you want."

i give him a faint smile. "stop trying to make us feel better. let's just cry it out."