Miss strong

Chapter15

I entered my house passing by the living room I found Alex and Eric siting watching a show. I continued walking upstairs putting Sarah on the bed then return back to them and sat to the chair next to them.

"Why are you sighing?"Alex looked at me titling her head.

"Did something went wrong Scarlet?" Eric asked worriedly.

I ran my palm on my face and rubbed my eyes sighing again.

"Guys I don't want to talk about it now. I am so tired the day was too much for me to handle." I looked at then with teary eyes which made them frown. Alex came to me and sat on the chair arm rubbing my back trying to consult me.  Eric sat on the table that was in front of me.

"Scarlet did he ask you about her?" Alex raised her right eyebrow at me trying to make sure that I am good. I nodded my head at her conforming to her that he did.

"Damn." she cursed and stomped her foot on the ground in anger. Eric looked at us confused about what were we talking about.

"Girls what happening here?"Eric asked looking at us back and forth but both of us kept silent for a while. He looked at me with a frown on his face.
"Scarlet for the last time what did this stupid asked you?" He said with anger.

"Actually Scarlet went to a date with Jonas as I told you." Alex said gaining a nod from Eric for her to continue.

"So he asked her who is Sarah to her and seemed it didn't went good." Alex said while running her hand through her hair in frustration. I got distressed more when Eric noticed my restless face he grabbed my hand massaging it trying to calm me down. He signaled to Alex who was pacing in the room to calm down and stop pacing. She looked at me with sorry face I shook my head to her.

"Look I am okay its not the first time." I shrugged and a tear fell from my eye.

"Stop lying to yourself! Its okay to be sad about it. Its okay to cry." Eric said.

"I am not lying to anyone I'm just trying my best to be strong." And another tear fall on my cheek.

"Don't hold you tears back. Those tears means that you were too strong to hold back so go ahead and cry maybe you will feel good after it." he said. I looked at my lap and started to cry really hard that I could catch my breath.

Alex took me in her embrace and started to pat my back trying to calm me down. After a while I calmed down and stopped crying I looked at Alex with a smile thanking her and kissed her cheek. She squeezed me hard in her embrace.

I feel good now thank you guys. I looked at them with my puffy eyes and gave them tight smile trying to assure them.

"Scarlet do you want to talk about it?" Eric asked I nodded and start to tell them what happened. They looked at each other shocked and then looked back at me.

"How could he do this?" He didn't seem like one of those stupid guys. Eric said in disbelief.

"I think he was just shocked at that time maybe that was his reaction when he got shocked." I said.

"Darling no you dont know Jonas like us. When Jonas got some shocking news he act up like an adult not like kids when any problem come across him he runs away like this." Alex said.

"I just don't know but I have that feeling that he isnt like that I think professional life isnt like personal life." I shrugged.

"Well maybe you're right."Eric said.

"Okay it was a long day I will go to have shower and sleep."They nodded their heads to me.

I got up and went upstairs to my room. I took a look at Sarah i changed her clothes to her bunny pyjamas then i went to take a long shower to calm me down a bit but instead i kept crying.

Scarlet talking to herself:
(The start.)
I thought that he is different i thought he will love me no matter what. He seemed gentil, caring and loving.

I thought he would good for my future.
I thought he would be a good boyfriend or husband i don't know what the future is holding for us but i thought he was the one.

Maybe he is shocked.
Maybe he is confused.
Maybe he thought that he would be my first and last.

If he accepted that it's okay to have a kid and that he wasn't my first would he ask me who is  her father?
Would he ?

What if he knew the truth! Would he continue with me?

I don't know i serious don't know.

(The end.)

I shook off these thoughts telling  myself to stop thinking about the future and start to think about what the best for me and for my daughter.

I closed the shower and got out wrapping myself with the towel. When i was about to enter the closet my phone was ringing i walked towards the nightstand to get my phone. I looked at the caller ID it was Adam.

"What does he want from me at that time?" I whispered to myself.

I went to the closet quickly to answer the call and closed the door behind me so Sarah won't wake up.

"Hello" Said Adam.

"Hi" i said coldly.
"Scarlet i want to talk with you a little."
" about?"
"About everything."
"So..?"
"About what i have done to you and about today."
"Look Sir." I sighed before continuing. "i don't think there is anything to talk about."

"Scarlet we are outside the company you can call me Adam please and give me a chance please."

"Look Adam whatever you have done is done already. If you break your leg how many months will it take to heal?"

"Maybe 2 months?"
"Right. will it be as good as before?"
"No." He said confused.
"So even if we do talk and i forgave you, will i forget what you have done?"
"Oh! Well ...I hope so but no what i have done is unforgettable."
"Exactly! so there is no need for talking." I sighed.
"Scarlet just let me explain myself."
"Look Adam there is no explanation for what you have done. You know like what is your reason to abuse me and insult me. There is no reason for your doings." I tried to reason him.

"Scarlet please at least let me apologise of today incident. Okay?" He asked i kept silent he took my silence as acceptance for him to talk but the truth that i didn't want to remember any of today's events.

"Look i didn't mean to interrupt your date today. I didn't mean to harass you by any chance. Like you said i stopped to say hi and see if you need anything like go back to your house or need accompany."

"It's okay Adam nothing had happened i am not angry at you for that at all."

"Are you sure?" He asked as if he was like child asking his mother for forgiveness and making sure that his mom wasn't angry at him.

"Super sure."

" so what about the other matter?" He asked with a low voice trying to convince me to talk about it with him.

I sighed. "Please i don't won't to talk about it now. I am so sleepy. Later we will talk."

"Okay as you like but i will open the subject again." He said confirming.

"Okay just later." I closed my eyes shaking my head in disbelief of his insistence.

"Okay later then." With that we closed the line and i wore my pyjama to sleep.

I just wish he won't talk about it again.