Time To Change

Chapter 9 ~ It's Not My Fault You Cuddle In Your Sleep

Suddenly I awoke to my wolf talking to me, at least I'm pretty sure he was.. *-should we do Silver? What if he doesn't know yet and totally freaks out? We surely can't tell him what we are, yeah he most likely knows we are at least half wolf but still it would mean that we have to tell him the whole truth, and what if he doesn't accept us, will we be living the rest our damned long life alone and-* "SADAO!" I mentally yell "Now that your not yapping about God knows what, explain to me what is going on because I know for a fact that your hiding your instincts from me, what the hell is it that you feel the need to hide from me?" I ask him pissed off. Putting my arm over my eyes I sigh and start to get up when I'm suddenly pulled down and feel a weight on my hips, I look up to see a confused Nixon on top of me, please don't notice please don't notice please don't notice. He looked down then staired back up at me with a strait expression. Fuck. He noticed. His expression quickly turned curious as his head tilted to the side, reminding me of a puppy.

"How come I woke up in your bed cuddling next to you? What happened last night and how did I get here? Why am I in your clothes, who changed me" he questioned lighthearted. Is there a possibility that he's not mad that he was sleeping next to a guy all night? Hmm.. Sighing I explained to his seemingly never ending questions.

"After we got in the house I was talking with Akira and remembered that she hadn't shown you to your room so we went to see where you had gone off to see that you where passed out on the ground seemingly having a nightmare, I tried to wake you up but you were dead asleep, so I carried you upstairs only to remember we hadn't been expecting visitors so there wasn't a bed prepared for you, and I admittedly hate people in my room so I resolved to take you to Kiras room but for some odd reason my wolf refused to let me pass through her door so last choice was my room." I explained, "and the reason your changed is because I had no idea how long it had been since you have changed or washed your clothes, and I am a clean freak, I admit it. But I refused to lay you in my bed in your clothes, so I changed you, don't worry I didn't see anything I shouldn't have. Lastly the reason I am here in this bed beside you, is because when I went to pick up your clothes I got pulled into bed by you. Now before you argue that you were asleep, it was your wolf controlling you, judging by your wolf's ears that had grown from your head, your stronger that you look kid. I could've gotten out of your hold but it was obvious your wolf wasn't letting up any time soon and I didn't want to wake you up so I figured I would just rest since it had been a very long day." I exhaled. God how many questions does he have. He looked at me questioningly. "Hey its not my fault you cuddle in your sleep." I laughed. Looking at me with a dumbfounded expression, he started laughing with me.

Soon we finally calmed down and he looked at me with a thoughtful expression "I wonder why our wolves are acting like this towards each other. I mean I can only think of one thing." he started

"and it's impossible" I finished looking away, sadness quickly filling me. It's not possible to have a mate. Everything I touch turns to shit. I mean look what happened to Kira after I left the pack, everything that has ever happened is my fault, even my parents.

"Why do you say that? Are you a homephobe or something, " he looked down, "it doesn't feel like it but I could be wrong"

"it's not that, it's just that I'll never have a mate, I don't deserve them, nor do I want to hurt them. That's why I was so conflicted about you staying here, anyone I associate with gets hurt,"

"then why is Akira here if you don't want anyone to get hurt? " he asked doing his cute little puppy head tilt again. God this kid would be the death of me.

"Because she's my twin sister, there's no way I can't take her in, besides she's only been living here for two days." I explained again covering my eyes so I wouldn't have to see his cuteness. "So my question is why are you sitting in top of me?" I asked with a smirk, he started to get off and I added "it's not like it's bothering me or anything, just curious," he stopped and got resitusted on top of me, I then noticed what he was doing and made him stop. "God dammit stop moving or else there'll be consequences," I opened my eyes to see him wide eyed and frozen where he was smirking I placed my hands on his hips wondering what reaction I would get out of him.

Still wide eyed he explained, "W-well my wolf woke me up and I guess my first reaction for an unknown reason was to climb on top of you, once I noticed what I did I was going to get off but my wolf made me stay put."

"So. It seems as if either our wolves either just like eachother or we are mates. In that case I'm giving you the chance to run away now seeing as I'm a monster, and whoever gets close to me either gets beaten or killed. " after me saying beaten he completely froze stairing of into space. I tried to get his attention but nothing would work. Hehe desperate times lead to desperate measures. I grabbed his wrists and flipped us over, holding his hands above his head. He snapped out of it his eyes going wide when he saw the position we were in hehe I might be enjoying this too much but oh well "Sadao. Tell me this now. Are Nixon and I mates or are we not?" *uh-uhm yeah..... You are... I knew you'd reject it so I kinda... Hid it from you.... * I growled at his response making Nixon go still with a panicked look, "Hey calm down I'm sorry I won't growl, I was just pissed at my wolf for hiding his thoughts and not telling me that we are mates.."

He relaxed and smiled "Don't worry about not growling, at first it startled me but I'm used to it now I kinda like it." he looked down embarrassed. "And so we are... I guess my wolf did the same." he chuckled and looked up with a gleam in his eyes. "So I guess I can do this now."