“I ain’t rainbows and sunshine all the time; I also have toxic traits.”
Little by little, I am embracing my flaws and slowly correcting it. I have to do this not only for myself but also for others. I really want to stop causing them headache. I mean if I were those people who would likely deal with me; I’d also have a headache. Honestly speaking, I am not a mixture of everything nice. I am also a mixture of stubbornness, childishness, madness and impulsivity. But first things first, I’d like to address my impulsive issues first and the rest will follow. I had a lot of regrets because of my impulsivity. I died a million times because of such baseless actions. Because of that, I tend to hurt people while I was hurting. I have blurted out words I shouldn’t have. I inflicted people with pain. Now, I am trying to somehow correct it with my own style.
One. Two. Three. Thank you all and I’m really sorry. I really am.
As much as people drain my energy, I also cause the same. I mean I am not always a fountain of optimism. I have also toxic traits that can cause headache to people that surround and used to be with me. Some went distant first before I could even distance myself. Well, they’ve done the right thing. They’ve done the right move to save their selves first before I could even cause them a larger mayhem. Nonetheless, a few stayed and I thank them for doing such. But, I have to let them go. I had to slowly cut my attachments from them so that I can finally let them breathe from the toxicity I have strangled on their neck. I have to save them from myself and I also have to save myself from them. I believe it’s better to keep this way. Anyway, it’s better to be alone and feel complete rather than to be surrounded by people and feel lonely. I'm sorry but this is the style I have chosen.
One. Two. Three. I let go of you all.
