The Scars Of Us

CHAPTER 10

"Whoa, Milly! What the hell happened to you?" Heather said worried as I entered the school.

I laughed nervously, "Just had a little bit of an accident, but it's fine. I'm fine." I had my crutches. Mrs Reed was kind enough to go get them for me before school. I woke up extra early today. I didn't want to face Jax... I couldn't.

Just the thought of seeing Jax made my heart beat double time. I felt like I was reliving that part of my life...reliving the accident. It freaked me out. I was supposed to just forget about that time. I had locked it away and kept it hidden so than I didn't need to face it...I could try and move on.

But Jax...him seeing it has completely unlocked it. Now it's forced me to face it. But maybe I don't have to? It's not like Jax will be a part of my life forever? I'll be moving away to New York after school, leaving everyone here behind...including Jax.

I took deep breaths as I went to my first class. I was fine. I felt numb. I wanted to escape. I wanted to leave this world for a bit. Just for a moment. Then a thought came to mind.

"Pssst...Heather," I whispered.

She was sitting next to me writing in her notebook when she turned to me.

"Is there any party going on tonight?" I asked.

She looked at for a minute and blinked as if she didn't hear right, "Are you being serious right now?"

I laughed quietly, "Yeah, is there?"

"Umm...Yeah. Bobby is throwing one. Wait...are you actually wanting to come?"

I nodded my head, "Yeah! Last night was fun," I lied, "I want to go out and do something else now."

Heather's eyes switched from excitement to one of concern, "Are you sure, Milly? I mean, do you think you should rest? You're hip is all fucked up still, isn't it?"

I sighed exasperatedly, "Yeah, but who gives a fuck! I can still party with crutches!"

Heather slowly nodded her head, "Okay. I'll pick you up tonight then."

I smiled and nodded my head. I sighed in relief. Tonight I wanted to let go. I didn't want to be Milly tonight. I want to be someone else. And that's exactly what I'm gonna get.

Jax didn't come to school which I was thankful for. I didn't want to face him. I didn't want to look at the guy that's undone all my hard work on keeping my past at bay. I don't really remember how my day went. All I was thinking about was tonight.

After school, Heather dropped me home. Jax's car wasn't there thank goodness. I went up stairs and took a shower. I let my hair dry naturally as I was tidying my room...making it completely perfect.

Once it was tidy I could relax. I went the bathroom to put some more cream on my hip. I sat there on the toilet while letting the cream do it's soothing magic. I leaned back and closed my eyes. I filled my lungs with air and released it, hoping it would relax me more. But sadly I felt just as stressed as I did before. Yay.

It had been a couple of hours and Jax still hasn't come home. I wonder he's doing? Probably wanting to get away from me.

I had just finished getting ready when I heard the honking of the horn. I didn't go to crazy. I wore some cute light blue jeans with a crop top and my hair in a messy bun. Mainly because I couldn't be bothered doing my hair. I wasn't going to this party to impress...I was going because I didn't want to be myself for a night.

I took my crutches and went out to the car. Heather and to my surprise...Remi was int he drivers seat. When I got a closer look at Heather I knew why. She was already drunk off her face.