Loving Stars

sixth chapter: I will make you smile,

When I lied there in a pool of warm blood, tasting her venomous love on my tongue in the drops of metal crimson, I realised something.

It hurt.

When she first hit me, I felt such agonizing painI could barely feel the air knocked out of my lungs. Leaving me just like everyone did, except for her.

The stinging of my cheek was soft, the stomachache was barely noticable and as if the numbness in my legs muted its screams. I didn't feel the forming bruises on my thighs or the purple breaking its way on my pale cheeks.

Nevertheless, it hurt, despite my numbness.

As foolish as it sounds from the lips of a fallen lover, my heart was the muscle that suffered the most. It was my heart that was bruised by her punches.

As foolish as it sounds from the lips of an incapable hater, it hurt, because it was the very first sign, that my star, my love, my Olivia...

she did not love me anymore.

I know, many will think I was stupid for not realising, Nick. You must pity me for my blindness. But the truth is, I knew.

I knew from the very beginning. I knew from the moment her eyes flashed from the darkness like monsters often do. That Olivia, will be my doom. I knew what she was doing to me. I knew she abused me. I knew she hated my very existnce.

I only refused to fight back. Because I wasn't her step father.

I refused to fight back simply because I was the only one who did not fall out of love.

I didn't want to let go of her. I didn't want to lift my arms to shield myself from the darkness surrounding my star.

I wanted to fight for her.

Gosh, I loved her so much. Despite the pain, despite my broken, silly heart, despite the darkness that surounded us, I can never forget that feeling.

I am so sorry, Nick.

But my heart will  even after death, after darkness, after light, after the stars falling, after eternity of fire... it will always belong to her.