Espresso And Cappuccino

Chapter 50: Mine

Vonn Arrow Lazaro

" Wala parin,Sir."

I smiled and nodded at Shaira,the manager of the coffee shop where I met Xienne. I was happy when she let me to post on the wall all the sketches I made 4 years ago. And everytime I will go here,I will always ask the manager if Xienne went here. Ngunit gaya ng araw araw kong naririnig mula sakaniya...ay wala parin.

For the past four years,halos palipasin ko ang buong araw ko dito kakahintay sakaniya. Hindi pa ako uuwi kung hindi lang pumupunta si Ashley dito at sinasabing hinahap na ako ng magulang ko. I looked so miserable that time while waiting her to go back here and listen to my explanation. My parents got even worried about me that I might not manage the hospital well soon.

I sighed and looked at all the sketches. I know what I did was so unforgivable and I can take everything she wants to give me. Even those painful words. Ngunit kahit na iniwan man niya ako ay patuloy parin akong naghihintay sakaniya. 4 years passed by but my feelings for her didn't change at all. I missed everything about her so much that's why I will never,ever get tired from waiting her to comeback...to comeback to me.

I understand why even if I begged her to listen to my explanation,she still didn't let me. Masakit man noong nalaman ko na umalis siya ngunit alam kong mas masakit sa parte niya ang lahat.

I can still vividly remember the first time I laid my eyes on her. She have those attractive paired of eyes that I used to stare all the time. Her pointed nose and perfect lips that I want to kiss but end up preventing myself not to. Her white skin which is exactly the opposite of mine.

At sa oras din na 'yon,ay iyon ang kauna unahang pustahan na agad kong pinagsisihan na gawin. Because she looks so beautiful and innocent. I can't even imagine myself hurting this girl. Call me stupid,but that time...I don't wanna make her cry. Not even shed a single tear.

Years ago,I was always excited to go in this coffee shop knowing that she's waiting for me. And in each passing day that we spend time with each other,I know I am already falling. Falling that I can't tell her the truth,because I know she would just going to hate me.

I was finding a right time to tell her about the bet. But whenever I saw her smiling,umuurong ang dila ko para sabihin sakaniya ang totoo. Sa tuwing magkasama kaming dalawa,pakiramdam ko ay mawawala siya sa akin kung sasabihin ko ang totoo sakaniya. So I decided to cherish our moments together,until I am ready to tell her everything.

To win the bet was not important to me anymore. Dave,a friend of mine,just like Xienne that time to the point that he wants to know her name. Before I could even see her face,umoo ako sa katuwaan na binalak niya. But then,like what I said,pinagsisihan ko agad noong tuluyan ko na siyang nakita.

I keep on waiting. Not until I heard the news that seems to wreak me and I almost give up on loving and waiting patiently for her.

" Here are the latest pictures of her. I hope it will finally satisfy you."

I glared at Ashley,the reason why Xienne left me and fly to New Zealand without even telling me. I know how mad she is at me because she didn't let me to explain and believe all those lies from this girl in front of me. Ashley was already my ex before I met Xienne. Kaya hindi ko siya magawang intindihin kung bakit niya sinabi ang kasinungalingan na ikakasal kaming dalawa.

Damn it,I did not even propose to her. At hindi ko din alam kung saan niya galing ang letcheng engagement ring na ipinakita niya kay Xienne noon.

Ashley apologized to me right after that night. I swear,I almost forget she's a girl that I want to punch her. We both know that I already broke up with her a week ago before I met Xienne. Oo at ayaw niyang makipag break sa akin noon ngunit kailanman ay hindi ko na siya binalikan. Noong kami pa ay lagi nalang naming pinag aawayan ang oras namin sa isa't isa. I was just really busy and stressed with my studies pagkatapos ay dadagdag pa siya sa sakit ng ulo ko. So when I can't handle her anymore,I broke up with her.