I'm mindful of others too. I tend to wonder about other people's experiences with MDD, how they daydream, what they daydream about. I'd love to meet a few other people who understood me, what I go through every day and how Maladaptive Daydreaming emotionally affects me - positively and negatively. I think it's nice to know I'm not alone, the mere fact people have read this Wattpad book and voted it makes me think maybe there are people out there like me - maybe there are lots of you out there like me, but perhaps the reason I don't think there is is because you don't talk about it, like I don't.
This is the only place I have EVER spoken about my "disorder", and even now I try to stay anonymous as to who I really am. I would absolutely die if anyone I knew in real life found out about this, or read this and knew it was me. It would kill me. I think, some things you should keep private. This is one of those things. To me, by publishing this I'm still keeping it "private", considering none of you know me. You could pass me in the street having read this, and you wouldn't think twice that it was me. I like it like that - I'm able to share things with people who understand, but still keep it my little secret.
Sometimes, I wish it was something I could talk about. It would never cross my mind to talk about it with my mum, or a family member, wouldn't be likely to talk about it with a real life friend, perhaps with an internet friend, perhaps. But with the knowledge of how badly society judges you, and the fact everything is classed as a "disorder" nowadays means your disorder might not be taken seriously, or it might be brushed under the carpet as an idea put in your head by society. So basically, the fear of people not understanding the significance of your problem. That's why I don't talk about it. Frankly, I wouldn't know where to start - as you might notice, each of the parts of this Wattpad story tends to jump around a bit, from my daydreams to the way I daydream to why I don't talk about it, it's all very scattered and random. That's because I feel there isn't a possible chronological order or a way to properly explain it. You just have to... go with the flow, again linking back to how my daydreams work. I go with the flow when I daydream, I daydream about the things that make me happy or make me sad, it depends on what I'm in the mood for.
That's the long and short of it.
Go with the flow.
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Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder
Non-Fiction**THIS HAS NO STORYLINE, IT'S AN INSIGHT** I don't believe there are many books on Maladaptive Daydreaming here, so my personal purpose is to try and connect with other daydreamers - I promise you're not alone, and this thing doesn't have to be clas...
