As You Are

Slowly

Addison

"I don't know what to do" I confess to Amelia, about two weeks after Derek and I had officially split. "Meredith is perfect, she does all these wonderful things for me. Grand gestures" I explain.

"So what's the issue here?" Amelia asks, her feet resting on the arm of the couch as she laid on her back on said couch, her head propped up with a couple of pillows as her arms sat crossed above her head.

"I want to do something grand. I want to sweep her off her feet for once, she deserves it" I explain enthusiastically, my mind racing with ideas.

"Asking Derek for a divorce wasn't grand enough" Amelia snorts with a smile, and I roll my eyes lovingly.

"That was the least I could do for her. We're scraping the bottom of the barrel here, Ames" I confess, throwing my hands up in exasperation as I paced the length of the living room. "She deserves something, she deserves the world really, but I can only give her something"

"Okay" Amelia stands in front of me, holding me in place by my biceps with a stern look on her face "breathe. Step one, remember breathing? Do that" she says sarcastically, and I scowl, dramatically breathing in and out loud enough for her to hear.

"Satisfied?" I huff, and she smacks my cheek lightly with the back of her small hand.

"Don't be a brat" she warns, and I pout, making her laugh.

"What" I ask, as she shakes her head, releasing me to my pacing as she sat back down on the couch.

"You're such a bottom" she laughs "Meredith must have fun with you" it wasn't something I wouldn't have expected Amelia to say; she was very open about her sexual preferences.

"Amelia Frances Shepherd" I gasp, looking at her like she's got five heads, feigning shock as she laughs beside me. Then, I change my tone completely. "What the fuck?"

"I'm just saying" she raises her hands by her head in defence "calm down, bottom, I mean Addison"

"Is it that obvious?" Meredith's voice sounds from behind me, and I turn on my heels so quickly I almost fell over.

"Meredith" I say, surprised but happy "you're here, I didn't even hear you come in" I smile, my demeanour immediately lighting up with her presence.

She brought out the best in me, and I absolutely adored her for it.

"The door was unlocked" she says, and I hold out my arms for her. She laughs, pulling me into her side with a kiss to my temple.

With one hand, she rubs my back sweetly, and with the other she leans in to tuck a piece of stray hair behind my ear, making me blush.

"Apparently so" I murmur, and Amelia laughs from the other side of the room.

"It's totally obvious. If you said jump with your tits hanging out, she'd say how high" Amelia says, causing me to shoot a glare her way. Luckily, Meredith just laughs and kisses the top of my head.

"Who's this, Addie? Don't tell me you've got another girlfriend. I don't think all three of us could fit in my bed" she jokes lightly, and I can't help the smile that splits my face in half. You'd think it would be a sensitive topic, but honestly, I trusted Meredith more than anyone and I knew that trust was reciprocated.

I'd cut off my left foot before I'd ever leave Meredith, or cheat on her. She was the best part of me, and I didn't desire anybody but her.

Amelia laughs, a full-on hearty laugh, before answering.

"I'm Amelia, Derek's sister. Addison's honorary sister, her kid is named after me" Amelia introduces herself, and I roll my eyes playfully. Of course that's how she goes about introducing herself.