My Love Story (Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

*Matthew's POV*

After what happened with me and Riley I don't really remember what happened when we hung out with the other fans. All I could think about was our kiss. She is different than anyone else. She seems so innocent and cute when you look at her but she has more of an 'I don't care what you see or when you see it because it is mine and you can't have it' sort of attitude which is really attractive. Most girls I meet are more concerned about how they look rather than how they act and she doesn't care about how she looks. Well she does but she would get ready in 15 minutes on tour and look good. She took less time than I did. 

Anyway after we hung out with the people who had backstage passes we all went back to the hotel except Riley and Shawn. Since Riley said she was going to come back on tour with us she went to go back some bags and Shawn went to go visit his family and friends and stuff. Shawn still had a room booked at our hotel so around 10:00 him and Riley came to the hotel. It was planned that Riley was going to stay with Shawn for the whole tour so his room still had 2 beds. It was only 10:00 ish so we all hung out in their room. After we were hanging out for a while I asked Riley if I could talk to her in the hall again. 

"What do you want to talk about Matt?" she said. I missed her voice so much. 

"I was just wondering what we are now because like we kissed and stuff and we both like each other and stuff." I said hoping she would get I was asking her to be my girlfriend.

"I don't know what we are to be completely honest Matt." said Riley. 

"Well then would you like to maybe be my girlfriend." I said with my voice getting abnormally high as I moved through the sentence. God I hope she says yes.

"Well actually ummm I'm sorry but I can't. I just don't think I can commit to that and I've only actually known you for a little while. I'm sorry." she said and I could feel the sadness coming onto my face. 

"Oh okay." I said trying to make the expressions come off of my face as I suggested we go back inside. 

"I'm glad you understand." she said. 

As we walked back inside I realized no one noticed we left so I just pretended nothing happened. I can't believe she just rejected me like that. I mean she said she likes me too. I think I'm going to call Alicia and invite her to our next event in New York. She gave me her number after I kissed her back in Chicago, I haven't actually used it until now but she has texted me a couple times and I haven't answered. I wonder if Riley is going to be jealous that I invited her. Ugh I have to stop thinking about her. She obviously doesn't like me as much as I like her. I guess I will see how she reacts tomorrow when we are in New York with her.