My Love Story (Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter 21

*Riley's POV*

I HATE MYSELF! I think as Matt and I walk back into my room with Shawn. Why did I just say no to being his girlfriend? And I can't believe I lied and said it was because I only knew him for a little while. I'M SO DUMB! What if he thinks I don't like him as much as he likes me. I definitely like him as much if not more! UGH!

The only reason I said no was because I'm scared to be his girlfriend. I'm only scared because I have never actually been in a relationship before. I don't know why I'm scared to be in one though. All a relationship is is when two people both like each other and they agree to only be with one person being the other person. Wait now I remember why I'm afraid of relationships. If Matt is ready to commit and I'm not what does that say about me. He is a social media star with girls practically throwing themselves at him and he chose to ask me of all people to be his girlfriend. He could easily have any one of those girls in those giant convention centers but he chose me. I'm just a normal girl who lives in Canada with ZERO guys ever asking me out and I of all people have the nerve to turn him down. I'm the one who should be being turned down, not him. 

Maybe tomorrow after their event in New York I will talk to Matt and tell him that why I said no to being his girlfriend. I'm just going to tell them that I'm going to sleep so to be more quiet. Wait, where is everyone. Did they all leave? What time is it? SHIT, it is already 5 am. How long was I thinking about Matt? Well we all have to get up at 6 so I may as well get 1 hour of sleep. 

I changed into my pajamas and laid my head on my pillow. I still can't sleep. Good I'm actually tired. 

"GET UP RILEY!!! IT'S 6:00!!! WE HAVE TO GET IN THE CAR AND LEAVE AT 7 AND WE STILL NEED TO GET FOOD!" Shawn yelled right as I closed my eyes.

"Dammit. Why did I agree to come back on this damn tour anyway?" I said more tired than I have ever been in my entire life.

"Because you love me and missed me and only me." Shawn said smiling like a little boy. He really is right I did miss him and all the guys.

We got in the car and I figured I would just sleep on the way but these damn boys all had to be so loud I couldn't even hear myself think. I decided to just be social and talk to everyone since I knew I wasn't going to get a second of sleep. We were talking about something really weird when we got to our hotel. We were late because the Jacks took so long to get ready this morning so they guys had to drop their bags off at the hotel with me and go right to the event. So now I'm stuck bringing their bags up to their rooms all by myself. This reminds me so much of the first day I met everyone. That's when I first thought Matt liked me because of what he said. 

I put all of the guys bags in their rooms and separated their keys in my hotel room and labelled them. I grabbed every ones hotel keys threw them in my purse and went to the event. Since I had to take all the bags out and sort them out and organize the rooms and do basically everything else I knew the event would be almost done, but I went anyway. I figured as soon as the show was over and after we met the fans with the backstage passes I would tell Matt why I said no. 

When I got to where the event was I realized it was over and the meet and greet with the fans with backstage passes was almost over too so I just walked around and talked to some of the fans without backstage passes. I saw a group of about 5 girls walk out from backstage so I figured the backstage pass session was over. I said bye to the girls I was talking to and went backstage and told the guys their rooms and were giving them their cards when I realized Matt wasn't their. I dismissed it and didn't think much of it.

I was walking around backstage looking for Matt when I found him. I can't believe he is doing this. He is making out with her. Is that the girl from Chicago? It's the girl he kissed that night I kissed Carter. I can't believe him. At this point I am just staring at them making out in a small room. I hate him so much. I guess I made a sound or something because they stopped kissing for a couple seconds. Matt and I made eye contact then he pretended he didn't see me and went right back to making out with her. I'm so going to get him back for this. Two can play this game Matt.