Set Me Free (Min Yoongi X BTS)

Chapter Thirteen - Despair

I tentatively walk into the cottage, still in my bathing suit, and holding on to my clothes. But no one is in the living room or kitchen area. I quickly glide over to Jimin and Hobi's bedroom and shut the door. Leaning against the other side of the door, I breathe a sigh of relief.

I strip down and crawl into the bed, and it feels luxurious to be alone in the bed. The cottage is quiet. I struggle to fall asleep, as I lie awake thinking about what Hobi said about Yunki. I can hardly believe it, though. How would it have worked out anyway? I commit myself to Yunki, we have a relationship, and in a few weeks...I leave, and then what? Why hasn't he even talked to me about it? Sure, I have been staying at his house. But we have been fairly casual about it, going about our own business, having meals together, relaxing, having fun, sleeping together. Not looking beyond what we are currently doing. Certainly not talking about a future together.

Despite the thoughts circling in my head, the drowsiness takes over and I fall asleep.

I wake up to the sound of my own stomach growling loudly. I realize that I haven't eaten anything but part of breakfast. It's already evening.

I decide to go over to the bunk room because my bag is still there. I need to change into something presentable. Maybe if I can find Yunki, I can finally talk to him. Or at least find some food.

I pull on my clothes and venture out into the living area. It is empty and I notice that the members are all out back. When I go to the bunk room it is empty as well, so I can change and freshen up in privacy.

I dress in cute capris and a graphic T, fix my hair into a pony tail, and put on a little makeup. Once I am ready, I take a deep breath and walk out to the back to join the others.

They are all drinking beer and grilling meat. Yunki is laughing and talking nonsense in Korean, so that I can barely understand him. He doesn't even seem to notice that I am there. Jin is ignoring me too, chatting with the guys. The rest nod and voice their greetings to me. Hobi winks at me but the others don't notice this. Tae is drinking Coke. He leaps up from his chair and offers me some beer and meat. I thank him and let him know that I am very hungry. He grabs a plate and fills it with meat, kimchi and rice and hands it to me. He then places a chair for me to sit in, beside his chair. I sit down and I immediately dig into my food. Tae hands me a beer and I wash the food down with it, almost finishing it in one gulp. 

 I can't bring myself to look at Yunki right now. How can I talk to him when he is like this. It seems he is already drunk.

But by the time I finish eating, I look up and realize that Yunki is standing beside me, his dark track suit at my eye level. I look up at him. His eyes are pools of darkness. He nods and gestures to me that he wants to speak to me alone.

I get up and follow Yunki to the side of the yard. By this time it is dusk, but he is glowing. Even in the dusk, after all that has happened, he looks deadly handsome. I just want to wrap my arms around him. I still want him...

But he keeps himself away from me and coldly says, "We're going to make a fire and hang out and drink tonight. If you want to join us, that's okay, but I just wanted to let you know that tomorrow we'll be taking you back to Seoul. We will move your stuff into a hotel. Don't worry that you checked out of your hotel, I will set you up in a nice place for the rest of your stay."

"Yunki, can we talk about this! Can we talk about what happened? We...haven't really talked about...us."

"I don't want to talk about it." With that, he returns back to the gathering and busies himself with making a fire.

I am left frozen at the edge of the yard as the darkness is falling.

Tae looks over at me with a worried look on his face. He gets up from his chair, walks over to me and puts his arm around me.