RAINDROPS

Chapter 24

I don't take the time to take in the expression on his face, instead I full on punch him in the jaw. The hit lands as hard as it can possibly land from someone with only one good arm. Nick falls down on the ground, but doesn't give in immediately. He gets up again, rubbing over his jaw with one hand. The surpise is evident on his face as he looks back at me.

He doesn't do anything though. He doesn't try to punch me back, he doesn't pull a gun on my. He just looks at me and he doesn't even look angry. This in turn kind of surprises me. His fists are clenched at his side and he looks weirdly calm somehow. It's almost like he wants me to hit him again. So naturally I do. I punch him in the face this time causing him to stagger back. He still doesn't respond.

'Coward!' I yell, tears still pricking my eyes. 'You did this! Do you even fucking realise you're the reason she's dead!?'

'Don't you think I don't fucking know that?!' he yells back, just as angry as me, but his anger doesn't seem to be directed at me.

'Then why didn't you do something about it?! She trusted you! Even though I told her the truth she still fucking trusted you!' As these words leave my mouth I realise I'm not only angry at Nick, his dad, Magnus and myself. I'm also mad at Ally. If she'd have just immediately believed me and stayed with me, this might not have happened. I'm angry that she decided to trust him over me. I know I lied to her, but I thought there was something between us. I thought she'd realise why I told her and it would be okay.

Nick still hasn't said anything. He finally looks as guilty as he is. Perhaps he's finally getting it, although hindsight isn't of much use. As much as I want it to be I know it's not just his fault. Yet as I think about how he treated her and manipulated her the anger just comes back twice as bad.

'You misused her!' I yell. I pull my arm backward to punch him again, but someone grabs me and holds me back. I try to fight them, but it's no use with my broken arm. 'You fucking asshole!' I continue yelling. I want to keep yelling at him until my voice can't take it anymore. I want to punch him until he literally can't see anymore. I've never felt so angry in my entire life, which is actually difficult to accomplish considering my history.

'Stop.' The guy behind me yells. I don't listen to him and keep struggling to get free. I feel something glowing in my pocket, it feels warm against my leg. 'Calm down.' he tells me now. His voice sounds calm and determined. Nick is still standing in front of me with what looks like a smug look on his face. He doesn't even regret it! He doesn't even care! If I was even slightly calmed down before, this turns it all around again.

'I hope your happy now!' I yell. 'You succeeded. Ally is dead! You killed her!' To say that she is dead at loud feels like another shot to the heart. The look on Nick's face changes for just a slight second as well. It's almost like he looked pained. I decide not to care. He deserves anything that's coming for him. He looks down at the ground and proceeds to turn around. While he's walking away I yell after him one last time.

'You deserve what's coming for you!' He ignores me and continues walking away. Only now I notice his dad and supporters have already left. 

I thrash around trying to get free from the guy that's behind me. However his grip just tightens more until eventually I'm forced to calm down. Once I'm calmed down enough the guy finally let's go of me. Now that I'm free I can see who was holding me. The burly man who was not affected by any bullets the other night is looking at me with an expression of pity on his face.

'I'm calm.' I huff angrily, swatting his arm away. All the faces around me seem to look the same, full of pain and... pity? Are they pitiful for Ally or for me? Magnus himself is now kneeling down next to Ally. A shudder goes trough me as I look at her. Why did this have to be her fate?