Ready. Set. LOVE. | Kōshi Sugawara x Reader

Late night phone call

Your dad carefully lifts you up in a princess carry and brings you upstairs to your bedroom. "You know...I don't know how to feel about Kageyama. He's constantly breaking your heart." Dad grumbles in your ear as you sniffle. He pushes the bedroom door open wider and sits you in your bed. Dad gently ruffles your hair and kisses your forehead. "Get some rest Y/N." He whispers a quick I love you and closes your door. You lifelessly lay back in your bed. Your nose and eyes red from crying your heart out. You pull your phone out, tapping on the call button. Hesitation fills you when you're unsure who to call right now. Your emotions are a mess and you just want to hear someone's voice other than your own thoughts. The first person in your recent calls is Tsukishima.

Your finger hovers over his name and you debate whether or not you should call him. You clearly know his feelings for you and you know where you stand with his emotions. You are not in the mind space to return his feelings and you'd hate to lean on him to give him the wrong idea. Forcing your eyes shut you lower the phone by your pillow. As if Tsukishima could read your mind, your phone vibrates beside you. Tsukishima's name flashes on the screen. You accept the call without a second thought. The craving of comfort overpowers your willpower.

"I'm surprised you picked up. Did you take your medicine?" Tsukishima's voice only makes you more depressed. His voice makes it more apparent that you're alone. You weakly reply to him through falling tears. "No." Tsukishima didn't pick up on your tears when he sighs. "So what you're telling me is that you enjoy the pain you're forcing yourself to go through?" You faintly hear the sound of a towel ruffling through Tsukishima's hair. You part your lips to reply but you close your mouth, unable to respond. The only pain you're feeling right now is in your heart. Tsukishima quietly waits for you to reply but your response never comes out.

"Stop being stubborn and take the medicine Y/N." You can hear Tsukishima's slight attitude, your heart throbbing from your sadness. "Kei." Your voice stammers out when you call out his name in the darkness of your room. Tsukishima's breath hitches and you hear it over the phone. "Kageyama came over earlier...and I'm heartbroken." The words tremble out from your throat and you start to sob again. Tsukishima clicks his tongue quietly. "I'm coming over."

"No don't." You blurt out. "It's late Kei."

"Idiot, you can't just tell me you're heartbroken and expect me to stay here." Tsukishima angrily retorts over the phone. Your chest tightens from his kindness and you press the phone closer to your ear so Tsukishima's voice can push out your depressing thoughts. "Can you just keep me company like this?" Your voice is barely audible when you ask Tsukishima for his company. A drawled out sigh fills your ears. "What am I going to do with you Y/N..." Tsukishima gently responds to you in a soft sweet tone. Your tears slowly fall when you listen to him. You hear Tsukishima rustling in the background. He lays down in his bed, taking his glasses off and placing it on his night stand. "So why did that jerk visit you?"

You purse your lips together, hesitating to recall everything. "He wanted to see me." You answer honestly. Visions of Kageyama's conflicted face flashes before you and you push his image away. Tsukishima grumbles under his breath and his words are incoherent despite the phone being by him. You continue, "He wondered the reason why I would put myself in such situations for him yesterday and I answered honestly." Closing your eyes you whisper the exact words to Tsukishima, "There's a small part of me that still loves you." Your voice wavers and you feel more tears slide down your face. There's a silence from Tsukishima. The only sound on his end is his light breathing.

"Ah..." Tsukishima weakly responds. "You know how to hurt me Y/N." Tsukishima bitterly smiles to himself. You bite your lower lip from Tsukishima's words. "How did Kageyama react?" Tsukishima continues the conversation despite the aching pain he's feeling. Your eyes stare at your empty bedside. "He said he wasn't worthy of my love."

"Damn right he isn't. Fucking idiot didn't know what he lost." Tsukishima doesn't hold back his anger towards Kageyama. "He also said as much as it hurts him...you or Suga are a better fit. He also hopes one of you will cherish every little bit of me." Your voice breaks when you recall Kageyama's words. The forced smile Kageyama shown you resurfaces your mind and you start to sob louder. You're unsure how your heart can handle so much heartache from a single person as you continue to cry into your pillow. Tsukishima presses the phone to his ear, unsure what is the correct thing to say to you while you're crying.

"I'm not going to speak on Suga's behalf but...I'd like to remind you again Y/N. I'm going to risk it all until you accept my love." Tsukishima hears Y/N's sobbing soften and he continues to express his emotions. "There's not a moment in my dull life that you're not on my mind. Your clumsy idiotic selfless self." Tsukishima's tone is gentle and delicate to your ears. His emotions reminding you of your feelings for Kageyama when you first fell in love.

The feeling so pure, innocent, and vulnerable.

"You make me say the most stupidest illogical things." Tsukishima pauses, dryly chuckling under his breath. "But I don't hate it if these words touch you in some way. Whether it's affectionate or just gives you comfort." You're consumed by Tsukishima's voice, the tears subsiding. "I really like you Y/N and I'll tell you this many more times until you get sick of me or when you break my heart. Whichever comes first." Just when you thought your eyes couldn't produce anymore tears, you feel your cheeks wet again.

"I think you're the idiot Kei..." You whisper into your phone and a low rumble of Tsukishima's chuckle fills your ears.

"Maybe I am."