daddy issues - alex turner

baby came home 2/valentines

"she was five foot four, with some money on the floor and a box that's hidden under her bed"

i was feeling a tiny bit better since me and alex came back from the cemetery. i still felt trauma but it felt good to get things off my chest. it was hard, but im glad i did it. alex and i had a long conversation in his car before we headed home. the way he cried with me broke my heart, he was always there for me no matter what the situation was. i thank god every day that i have him by my side.
he and the rest of the band had gone to the studio to start recording their upcoming album which they hadn't named yet. i told alex it was ok and that i'd be fine on my own for a couple hours. since humbug came along perfectly and was loved by their entire fanbase i knew they'd be able to keep up the great work so i didn't wanna hold them back from anything. i decided i would take a nap before alex came home because i had woken up quite early this morning. i went to bed and without even changing my clothes i fell asleep. i felt drained from everything that was going on in my life, i so badly wanted the pain to end and sleeping was one of my biggest coping mechanisms and since i was staying in alex's house i felt a little bit more content. their upcoming album was another thing that was keeping me busy, i was usually with them through the whole writing and production process.

i woke up to the sound of the doorbell ringing. "the dumbass forgot his keys again" i thought to myself and smiled. i walked to the door and opened it to see alex standing in front of me.

"oh my god did i wake you up? i forgot my keys again i'm so sorry. i promise i will start being more care-"
"al, its ok don't beat yourself up"

she pulled him into a tight hug and they stayed like that for a while. they were both pretty exhausted with things going on in their lives, alex and the rest of the band was worn out from working for hours on the new album and lolita was just emotionally drained with everything. she hadn't talked to her mom for a month now, and the trauma she felt from her dad was still there.

"how was your day?"
"nothing special, me and the guys worked our asses off for hours again, im exhausted, i think i need a nap"
"i'll join you in a bit, i have to clean the house for a bit, we've left it a mess for days now"
"don't tire yourself out lo, i'll help you when we wake up, ok?"
i nodded with a tired smile and hugged him once again. i laid down on my bed and waited for alex. after a couple of minutes he came in with a smile plastered on his face
"hey, guess what"
"hm"
"matt says we go to the bar tonight and get wasted"
"i don't know al, i haven't drank in forever and i don't know how i will end up"
"oh come on, i think you'll be fine, it will be fun"
"okay I'll give it a shot, i haven't seen the guys in forever anyway, i miss them a lot"
"im sure they missed you too, they'll be very happy to see you"
"so when are we leaving?"
"in about an hour"
"ok, sounds good to me"
alex gave me a warm smile and left my room, since we've known eachother since we were kids, i pretty much had my own room in his house now and with everything going on in my life i knew i had to be nowhere but here. i started to get ready and waited for alex by the door. we got in his car and he started driving. he asked me if i was sure that i wanted to go and i said i was. i hadn't really gone out in forever and i thought it'd be good to get my mind off all the trauma that happened in my life. when we got to the bar i saw matt, nick and jamie standing by the door. i greeted them and hugged them tightly. i hadn't seen them in more than a month since i haven't gone out in so long. before everything went down we would hangout every single day. we walked into the bar  and ordered our drinks, getting ready for the big night ahead of us