I'm Celine 17 years old and I have a boyfriend named Jazzer. He was so sweet, kind and a very protective boyfriend. I don't know when it starts but I just find my self so madly and deeply inlove with him. Hanggang umabot na sa punto na he became my life. I can't afford loosing him , he became my strength when in times that I become weak, my light in the dark world.
As the time pass by nagbago ang pakikitungo niya sa akin. He was not the same Jazzer I know. He was not the same Jazzer who was so sweet and protective. He became cold and heartless.
I really don't know kung ano ang nangyayari sa kaniya. Everytime na tinetext ko siya, uumaabot ng ilang minuto before he replies. Pag phone calls? Nag uusap kami but just a short period of time 'cause he said he need to drop the call dahil may importante pa siyang gagawin. And when we meet lagi siyang nagmamadali dahil may importanteng lakad pa raw siya.
Everytime I got home I can't stop my self from crying, thinking what's wrong with him? Or may nagawa ba akong masama? And one day when I have the courage to ask him what's wrong? You know what he said?
He fell out of love
He fell out of love
He fell out of love
The fvck? I can't help but to burst my tears in front of him that time. No ayaw kung maniwala because he said whatever happens he will continue to love me, na 'di siya magsasawang mahalin ako. But the words he thrown before are just a words na walang kasiguraduhan.
At nang araw nayun he broke up with me. I don't know what to do that time. My hearts feels like its going to explode. I can't think right, it feels like I carry the whole damn universe. I thought I'll going be insane. Nawalan na ako nang gana sa buhay and the same day I died, not physically but emotionally and mentally dead.
Months passed but still nothing changed. The pain he left in my heart was still fresh. Nawalan ako nang ganang kumain at matulog nang mga panahon na yun. I became so lifeless. But I thank God that I have my friends who always there for me. One day niyaya nila akong lumabas to have some bonding and have fun with them. Lagi na lang daw akong nagmumukmok sa bahay they brought me to the nearest resto but to my surprise Jazzer was there. My boyfri-ohh my ex boyfriend was there.
Seeing him talking and laughing with the beautiful girl na kasama niya makes my world stop spinning. I can see through his eyes that he was so damn happy with that girl. I can see and feel it. " Girl you're so damn lucky to have him as your boy kindly take care of him. " I whispered as I run through the next door as my tears fall into my eye.
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Walang araw na hindi ako umiiyak noon but now wittnessing the wedding of my man with the girl he choose over me was the best decision he ever made. I'm so happy that he was so bright for choosing her, I'm so happy seeing him marrying the girl who can love him ti'll the end.
Thats my man. Yes my man he will always be my man. Im so thankful that he broke up with me with the same day na sinabi ng doctor ko that I have a Cancer.
"I'm so proud of you Jazz. I'm so proud of having you as my man. I will always love you. Love and take care of your girl. I love you" I said when I've given a chance to talk to him. After I utter those words image of him became blurry and I passed out.
The same day when the wedding happened, was the same day I died. And now I'm happy to say that leaving me was the best decision you ever made Jazz.
