INEFFABLE - chris miles

1x08 : one

i must've stood outside chris' door for about 10 minutes before i finally plucked up the courage to knock the door.

he opened it and smiled slightly "what you knocking for you freak just come in".

i chuckled slightly before brushing past him and sitting on his bed. he shut the door over and sat beside me.

"look" we both started at the same time.

"sorry you go" i said to him with a small laugh.

"look you know how i feel about you yeah... i half remember telling you after jals dads thing" he laughed.

i chuckled "i didn't think you'd remember that".

"yeah well..." he sighed "to be honest kai i don't really give a shit about if you feel the same back right i just want us to be mates again".

"chris i like you, like really fucking like you...but i'm just really confused right now because my whole life i've been into girls, well that's what i thought" i paused and sighed "i don't know what going to happen with us and i'm sorry that i can't definitively tell you what i'm feeling but i really hope this doesn't change things between us because i fucking love you man".

he wiped the tear that had fallen down my face "kai i ain't gonna pressure you into nothing, as long as we can be mates again i'm happy".

i sniffed and chuckled slightly "yeah i'd really like that".

he pulled me in for a hug and placed a small kiss on the top of my head.

"now let's go and get some drink before the others get here" chris jumped up.

"wait" i grabbed his arm and pulled him back now "i've got something else to tell you"

"what is it" he looked puzzled.

"so you know the scouts that came to one of my games, well mickey told me today that they really like me and they want me to go out there for the summer".

chris grabbed me and pulled me into the tightest hug "that's fucking amazing i knew they'd love you".

when he eventually let me go i looked at him "i'm gonna miss you you know" my eyes began to fill up.

"god what with all the tears tonight man" he joked as he wiped the tears "save the tears for when you're actually leaving yeah" he sniffled clearly holding back his own tears.

i chuckled and wiped my eyes "yeah that's a good plan".

"now are you gonna tell me you're pregnant or something or can we actually go get some alcohol now" he stood up and offered me his hand.

i rolled my eyes and took it "how exactly do you plan to get this drink, you know there's no off-licenses in bristol that'll sell you".

"and that's why it's the return of this" he said as he pulled out his fake id.

"oh my god" i laughed as i took it out his hand "this is never going to work".

"trust me kaitlyn it will" he said as we left his room "we're gonna get loads of drink, get absolutely fucked and have a top night".