As the night goes on Jake just holds Ethan as he wakes up on and off holding him in his arms as he cries and sobs into his chest, trying his best to calm him down a little. He knew Ethan needed to let it out, let it all out. Let out Ryan's death, that he couldn't say goodbye the way he wanted to, that he couldn't tell Ryan he forgave him and that he loved him, and now his mom and dad.
He lost everyone he loved in such a short time and his brother being in a coma that he is amazed Ethan is still standing and not trying to hurt himself or anyone else just to escape the pain he feels.
As Jake is thinking all of this, he didn't realize Ethan had fallen asleep. He looked down and kissed Ethan's forehead and he used his free hand to wipe the tears from his own eyes that he didn't know that formed until one fell on Ethan's cheek when he kissed him. He closes his eyes and says a silent prayer for Ethan and goes to sleep.
Ethan wakes up around ten and feels a strong arm around him and smiles. He looks up and sees Jake's sleeping face, mouth open a little and breathing softly. He studies his face, such a strong jawline and stubble that grew overnight and his light pink lips full and sweet looking.
He slowly moves Jake's arm and gets out of bed without making noise and goes to the bathroom. He washes his face and brushes his teeth. He walks back into the room and puts on his boxers, sweats and tank top. He puts his flip flops on and hat and sunglasses. He grabs his phone and he walks to the door and looks back to make sure Jake is still sleeping before opening it walking out.
The heat of the morning hits him like a ton of bricks and he catches his breath before calling Emma.
"Hey Em, I'm alright. I should be heading out in the morning, yea the plane needs time to get here so can't just leave whenever, yea I called them and talked to them about my family, yea mhm yea I'll be by the hospital when I get back and I'll let you know when I'm home. Ok, I love you too Em." He hangs up the call and walks to go get some food. He hasn't eaten much lately and he's needing food, he can feel his body getting weaker every day.
He walks into the chow hall and everyone looks at him when he opens the door. Everyone is quiet and he just stops, waiting for someone to say something and when no one does, he walks up to the line and puts food on a tray and grabs a bottle of sprite and pays for it and sits at a table in the middle of the room. Everyone is still quiet. He sighs and looks around at the guys.
"Guys, thank you for all of your support and everything you have done, losing Ryan and now my parents, it's hard I'm not going to lie but I'm not always going to cry. I do that in my own time, it hits me out of the blue mostly when I'm alone so please don't look at me like that, I can't take the looks. Just talk to me, joke around with each other like you were before I walked in, laugh, have fun because if we all can learn something from this, it's that life is short, and we should live it like there is no tomorrow. Yea God I miss Ryan so much and I regret somethings that I couldn't and didn't do but I'm not going to stop living my life, he nor my family would want that so please, live your lives guys. I'm leaving tomorrow to go home for three God damned funerals and I'll be coming back as soon as they are over, I made a commitment and I will be here to see it through, it's my baby and it's the one thing I haven't lost, yet anyways. While I'm gone, and you have a minute, do me a favor? Look out for the crew, bring them water and lunch if you can, I usually do that, but I won't be here, so it would be a load off my mind not worrying about them while I'm gone. They are my responsibility and I don't want to leave them, but I have no choice." Everyone is still looking at him and no one speaks until finally Ethan hears the sexy mainly tone from the man he spent the night with.
"Don't you worry, the crew will be taken care of." Jake said over by the door, standing there looking at Ethan.
Ethan smiles up at him and he walks over to him, places his hands on Ethan's cheeks and kisses him, in front of everyone. Everyone is shocked including Ethan. Ethan falls into the sweet kiss and moans softly and when Jake pulls away, he smiles at Ethan.
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Guarded Heart
RomanceEthan has had a good life for the most part. He was a business owner and he worked for his family's company, what life has in store for him, no one could even imagine. He goes through a lot with his ex Alex, and a few new men in his life. Read more...
