LOVING MS. BILLIONAIRE

21

The night was still young and everyone was having fun. Aside from the Anke issue, we were all having a good time. I had turned down her offer and she didn't talk to me again after that. It was hilarious yet very serious.

The smell of sweaty bodies began to get me dizzy. I felt fuzzy from all the alcohol and my mind was jammed with distress.  I got up from my seat and headed outside for some fresh air.

Immediately I went outside, a buzz of wind calmed my raging thoughts and I felt calm.

Once I was outside, I reflected on the turn my life had taken. All I could think of was the past. I'd never truly found happiness. I'd never felt wanted. I was always the plus one, the extra burden. But soon, things were going to change, for the better. i was ready to do whatever it took, whatever it cost to get my freedom. It was so close, I could smell it, feel it even.  As I thought about my next step, I felt someone's eyes boring into me. I turned around abruptly but there was no one.

That's odd.

Something about the situation felt eerily familiar. Deadly familiar. There's only one person who would try such stunts on me. I dismissed my thoughts as I had had so much to drink. Perhaps the alcohol was finally taking its toll. Perhaps it was the stressful week at work and my misplaced emotions. It couldn't be anything else. No, it couldn't be.

Still, I had this strange feeling that someone was following me and watching my every move. I didn't want to be caught in the crossfire. I wanted to be ready for them, whoever they are, but for now we needed to get the hell out of this place.

I strutted back inside to find the rest but they were nowhere in sight. Shit shit shit. I searched around the place and came back with nothing. Where in the world are you guys, I'm losing it here. I searched around the washrooms but still couldn't see them. I could only hear the sounds of drunken lovers engaging in deceptive pleasures. As i turned around, I bumped into Esme who had mascara smeared allover her face. She looked like she had been crying a lot. Her mouth was quivering and she reeked of a strong liquor. Its like she had been drowning her sorrows.

''What's wrong Esme, talk to me. What happened to you? You looked like you emerged from a trash can.''

''Matt, that son of a bitch, he's fucking her. He goddamned knew i liked him then he goes and screws someone else, what for? To make me jealous? Were not in kindergarten anymore he should know that.''

''Wo wo wo, slow down. Take it easy, Matt's having sex with who? And why does that make you so mad?''

''Is there a lose screw in your brain?Dont you understand basic English? Do you want me to spell every little details for you?''

''Hey hey look up here woman. Just because you're mad doesn't give you the right to be a bitch. You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to but I am not going to just stand here and watch you insult me.''

''I am sorry, really, I am sorry. I am just so mad at him. A few weeks ago, he asked me out on a date and i said no. I told him he was not my type and I only see him as a friend. But of course i didn't mean it, I only said it to gauge his reaction and I thought he took the situation lightly. The i find him in a bathroom stall at it with another woman. And not just any other woman, Anke?''

''What? Hes having sex with Anke? The girl is virgin, she might not even have known what she getting herself into. She was in a drunken stupor, that idiot!''

'' So was Matt.''

I didn't know what to make of the situation. I was saving Anke's dignity when i turned her down and she goes and throws herself at a drunken person who will forget about it the moment it was done. But Matt of all people? I didn't care about anyone but myself, I am selfish like that but i know a stupid decision when I see one.

I had so much drama of my own and I didn't want to be caught up in someone else's. Not when mine was still overshadowing me. But these people were my friends, even if just for a short period, I couldn't just leave them like that!