Guide Me • Kylo Ren

Luke? Leia? Anyone?

Six months turned into a year, as I sat in this cell. My seventeenth birthday went by. I was given food, though I didn't eat it often. Ben, excuse me, Kylo Ren liked to visit every once in a while. Trying everytime to convince me, we were on the good side.

I hadn't talked once since the first day I arrived. Though I did try reaching out to Leia, Luke, anyone. All I got was radio silence.

I still had faith in them and the rebellion, though my hope was long gone, as was most of my sanity.

Once Stormtroopers beat you, saying the vilest things they can thing of about the rebellion and you, you tend to go a little crazy. But the beatings stopped as soon as they started, Kylo came in to see my face bruised and bloody. He went berserk. Slaughtered the two Stormtroopers who beat me.

He said I would be treated so much better, when I turn to the dark side. I did think about it, I thought about it a lot. If someone was going to come save me, they would have done it by now. I was left alone, trapped on his ship, and trapped in my mind with no Master Luke or parent figures of Leia and Han to come save me.

I lifted the barricade in my mind I had made for Kylo Ren. I sent him a message through our thoughts, that I would like to speak to him.

He came to my cell, sent the guards away and took off his helmet. A tactic, Snoke told him to do, so I could see the face of my first love. I think he did it, because he had a soft spot for me. And from my expressions, he could guess the helmet terrified me.

I thought about my words I would say to him. I hadn't used my voice in a year. Would I recognize it? Was I making the dumbest decision of my life or the safest choice to keep me alive?

I am a survivor, I blossom and thrive when I am left on my own.

"I'm ready to go to the dark side."

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