I just want to be the one you love(malvaro)

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Mattia pov:
After I left alvaro at his house I went back to my house. I went to check on my parents and siblings they were all asleep. I got comfortable for bed.
I layed down and just stared at the ceiling remembering memories.

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I stared at him. He looked so gorgeous. I stared at his lips wanting to kiss him. His soft shiny lips. I wish he would look at me. I wish he would talk to me. Why is he always quiet? Does he even look at my direction? Why do I feel this way when I look at him? Why doesn't the feeling go away? I can't be gay...can i...? It's just everytime I look at him I feel butterflies in my tummy. I want to stop feeling this way but I can't. I know he will never like me back. Everyone likes me..why doesn't he? I want him. I hope one day I can talk to him. "Mattia!" Kairi said making me jump.
"Sorry I spaced out" I said. "Tia it's time for lunch let's go" kairi said. "Ok I'm going" I said. The bell ringed and everyone went to lunch.
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"Why do I have to feel this way for you alvaro" I whispered to myself. "I can't go one second without thinking about you".
"Why do I have to love someone that i know won't love me back". "Why can't I just love someone else". "Why does it have to be you". "I've always tried my best for you to notice me... or even talk to me". "Why do I feel happy everytime I see or have you close to me". "I've loved you since we were in school". "Why can't you notice that". "It's so obvious"
All these thoughts came in to my mind. I thought I would stop loving him once school was done . I try my hardest to stop loving him but I can't. I know he won't love me back. Why can't I stop thinking about him. Atleast I can talk to him now.
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Mattia finally went to sleep while all those thoughts rushed to his head. Would alvaro ever love him? Would he feel the same way mattia does? Who knows....
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Hey guys so this is a short chapter. I'm running out of ideas so if you have any please leave them in the comments. Thanks for reading.anyways that's all.