Written In The Stars - First Draft (Published Under Immac PPH)

CHAPTER 08

Written In The Stars

Valerie's POV

"Clare?! You mean, Clarita Analeyelle Buenavista?!"

Bea said in complete shock while holding her cup of caramel macchiato, she visited me at home so we could study together but we both ended up chatting about what Tyler said to me when we were at the hilltop spot. I just nodded as I continued to type on my laptop, keeping myself busy with all of the schoolworks I have to avoid the topic now. It was hard to keep a straight face because I couldn't tell Bea about what I feel, it still felt horribly surreal for me, like I still couldn't accept what happened.

I couldn't tell anyone, not even Sabrina. I wanted to get over it myself, I wanted to feel the pain alone so I could heal myself and my heart in peace and serenity. I want to feel like I'm a new person again, like I'm someone who developed into a better version because of the pain. It was a different pain, it's unlike the pain I felt when Mikhel left. It was another pain, something I never thought I would have to experience. It didn't even cross my mind that I'd get it from Tyler.

Tyler, on the other hand, was so happy. Everyday, he would remind me about my promise, and I'd do it wholeheartedly that's for sure but if only I didn't love him more than just a friend... If that was ever the case, It wouldn't be so hard for me to help him or to give him my mere support, even if I'm not okay with Clare. Tyler is my best friend, he's always there for me when I need him just like how I am to him, but this time... it was hard to say that it's the same.

"Are you seriously not joking?!" Bea says with her hands on the air, her eyes were wide as she frequently asked me about the exact words Tyler said to me. As if I had the time to process and memorize them. I could not even count the times Bea kept asking me, she just went on and on about it, saying that she doesn't trust me and she thinks I'm just joking around. "Wait! Do you really swear? Is it really true?!"

"Yes. How many times do I have to tell you, Bea?" I laughed while asking her. She just rested her hands on the desk and started to think deeply. Then she's silent. It was odd now because there wasn't any noise anymore. I looked at him and then there's a frown printed on her face, she looked upset about something. It was just suddenly there. "You've gone quiet... Is there anything wrong?"

"I'm just sad... For you." She said, the frown still stayed on her face. What she said sounded so genuine because I could hear it in her voice. I was confused though, I stopped typing and observed her facial expressions. She looked sad and that never changed even if the minutes already passed by. "Are you okay, Valerie? You can tell me if you aren't. You know I'll always listen to you and that you can vent on me. I won't judge."

"What are you talking about?" I asked and she shot her brow up. She didn't like the way I responded. She looked at my face, after that she shook her head in disappointment. "What?"

"Here we go... the denial stage!" She says with the same disappointed look on her face. I shook my head at her and stood up, I went to the kitchen and opened the fridge to grab a glass of water. I also took one for Bea. When I got back to the living room, she was busy reading the review papers on the desk. We usually do this with Elijah and Tyler but Eli has basketball practice and Ty said he has somewhere important to go and something important to do. "I'm not a moron Valerie, it's obvious that you like Tyler. You can't deny it from me, I know my facts."

Bemused. That is the most accurate word that I could use to describe what I felt when I heard what Bea said. That is probably why she keeps pushing me on Tyler, why she teases me about having a crush on him or that he could possibly be the right one for me. I shook my head to clear the thoughts off. The possibilities are all gone now, they vanished through thin air, I know where I stand. I know how far I could go, and I know it ends here. Maybe I am just a friend.