Billionaire Love (Frankiana)

Chapter 31 - Regrets

Franki Pov

Pain...

Masakit maiwan ng taong mahal mo,pero ang pinaka masakit ay yung iniwan ka na hindi mo man lang alam, hindi ka man lang nakapagpaliwanag or even to say goodbye.

After that  night,pinuntahan ko si Fourth to ask him where Diana is...but he knows nothing...And then pumunta ako kay Gazini...begging her to tell me where Diana is..but she knows nothing..

So.... I decided to go to her Dad....Pagdating ko sa bahay nila Tito,andun din si Tita..Nagulat si Tita ng makita niya ako,minsan lang kasi ako dumalaw sa kanila, simula kasi naging actress ako naging super hectic na ng schedule ko..Kinumusta nila ako pati si Diana pero natigilan si Tito ng makita niya akong umiiyak sa pagbanggit ng pangalan ni Diana...Kaya i told them what happened..And also ask Tito kung alam niya kung saan si Diana, but sadly hindi niya rin alam kung saan ang anak niya....But they assured me that if malaman nila kung saan si Diana, they would tell me immediately....Umuwe ako sa condo ng luhaan...

But i never give up...Gazini and Maza help me para matawagan  lahat ng mga friends ni Diana including some of their business partners na close ni Diana, pero lahat sila sinabi na hindi din nila alam kung san si Diana.

So... I decided to call her Mom...Nag usap kami,kinumusta niya ako, kami ni Diana...Sa tuno ng pananalita niya, alam ko na wala rin siyang alam kung nasaan si Diana..Kaya nung sinabi ko sa kanya kung ano ang nagyari,nabigla siya, hindi daw ugali ng anak niya na gumawa ng decision na ganun.. But she is sure that Diana is hurt.. Sabi niya sa akin, give Diana some time.. Babalik din daw yun...But... Damn... it's been three months since she left me.

Hindi ako tumigil sa paghahanap sa kanya, pero naisip ko hindi mo naman talaga mahahanap ang taong ayaw magpahanap.. Di ba?

Lumipas ang mga araw, buwan...Isang araw while having my coffee...My doorbell rang....Tumayo ako para tingnan kung sino...Wala naman akong iniexpect na bisita ngayon..

And then.. I saw a letter in my doorstep...

To the one who have my heart..

Written on the front of the envelop...walang nakalagay na address kung san galing..

I open it...

This is Diana's  penmanship..

Love,

If your reading this,its because we didn't make it. I'm sorry we couldn't go back to how we used to be. I'm sorrt that you choose him or you just couldn't chose me. There is nothing in this world that I've ever wanted more than for us to last. I hope you find a love that is all the things I could never have seemed to give you,no matter how hard I've tried. How much I bled for you, it never seemed good enough for you.

I'm glad that I at least got the chance to be alive during the same time as you.  It's not the same as having you, but existing in a world with you have to suffice.

Please don't forget how undoubtedly, irrevocably,completely,head over heels in love I am with you. This is something that is never going to change.

It tears me apart that we spent so much time assuring our for each other, planning the rest of our lives together, but we will never get the chance to fulfill those dreams. And I have to accept that and a piece of me does, because I would do anything to make you happy, even if it was allowing you to walk away from me....Its pains me to think that I am not good enough.. I know, this is the kind of loss you have to carry with you until the very end.

I can only hope in another life, things would be different.

I can only hope, that you really did love me.

Diana

Habang binabasa ko ang sulat hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang mga luha ko. Akala niya hindi ko siya mahal, akala niya pinagpalit ko siya sa iba....God..If she only knew how much i loved her.. If i could turn back time i will...Para maitama ko lahat ng mga mali ko...Kung hindi sana ako humingi ng space, kung hindi ko sana hinalikan si Charles that night.. Sana andito siya nganun.. Sana kasama ko pa siya ngayon.

But...its too late... Iniwan na niya ako....And i have to live with it....I think about her every night,crying in the middle of the night...Ang sakit pala iwan ng taong mahal mo...Ganito siguro ang na feel ni Diana when i ask her to give me some space...It broke my heart....But this is my own doing... Ginawa ko sa sarili ko to...I deserved this pain..

.Everything is my fault.

I'm so stupid....I lost her because I'm selfish....Damn it... I hate myself..

So... Ano na Franki?  Where did you go from her?