Inside the Asylum (Book 1)

Chapter 3 - Abandoned

The electric pulses ran up my spine, crippling me. They moved slowly then faster and faster until it felt like there were thousands of pins being forced into my body. The screams sounded foreign even to me. Like they were a million miles away. All I wanted was for it to end. I lay there strapped to the chair, tears unwillingly making their way down my cheeks. The buzz rang in my ears.

For the hours after she brought me to that room, that torture chamber down on the floor below the padded rooms. I could still feel the electricity dancing through my veins. My whole body tingled. For those next few hours I sat trying to forget the feeling of the dark, hard wood of the chair. The straps around my ankles, thick and heavy, they felt like they weighed at least half of my weight. I couldn't move away even if I wanted to. The same type of straps was over my stomach, wrists and my head. I was trapped between those horrible heavy straps and the cold, hard wood. I could hardly breathe. They seemed to get tighter with every breath I took. The screams escaped more frequently then. I felt beyond drained of all my energy by the time I'd been there for an hour, so after the 5 hours I was there I couldn't move by myself. They hauled me to my feet and dragged me through the cold white and pale blue corridors. The halls reminded me that was stuck in a "hospital" or in my opinion, Hell. The yellow lights above my head were sickly pale casting on to the walls making it look like the whole building was unwell. As they dragged me back to my room, I noticed that there were more and more people. There must have been at least 100 more people. I was one of the first people in here! There were only about 4 rooms filled when I arrived all those years ago! Now there is almost 100 rooms filled.

As I looked around at each door we passed, I heard a scream from somewhere ahead of me. A scream I recognised. My brother's scream. Why was he here? I told him to be careful! I told him they'd think he was crazy! As we got closer the nurse and her helper slowed to a stop.

"Look who we found." The nurse wore that same devilish smile as the first day.

"Do you know who that is?" she laughed watching the horrified look on my face. My eyes searched for any way to get him out of that room. There was nothing.

"Let's watch, shall we?" His screams scarred my ears.

My heart wretched. All I wanted to do was stop them from hurting him, well mostly anyways. A very small part of me wanted to leave him. For him to feel the pain I felt when I was brought and left here. He knew that I was here, but he never came to see me. So why should I help him? He left me and that's what I wanted for him too. It was only fair! The nurse opened the door.

"We have someone who wants to see you." She said pulling me into the room behind her. He didn't look up at first, just sat there waiting for the punishment to continue but after a few minutes snapped his head up, looking directly at me. I couldn't tell if he was happy to see me or not. His eyes were cold, but he had had a slight smile which he was trying to hide. As his punisher continued, I wanted to do two things; the first was to stop him from hurting my family, the second was to join in. I had reasons for doing both. I wanted to stop him because that was my family and I felt like I had to protect my family but I also wanted to join in because the person in front of me had abandoned me, he had never come to visit me even though he knew where I was this whole time.

He abandoned me.

He abandoned me!

All I wanted to do was to abandon him. The thought played in my mind on repeat.

"He's nothing to me." I looked dead in the eyes of the nurse as I said it. Then I looked at him, and he looked up hurt and betrayed. Good! Now he knows how I feel.

"What?" He kept his eyes on mine.

"Please. Tell them I'm not insane! Tell them I should be at home with mum, please! Do you really hate me that much? What did I ever do to you to make you hate me?" He was pleading with me.