Wonderland (Troyler)

Chapter One

TROYES POV:
I have been pacing around my room for hours now, not know what to tell my parents. I want jt tell them I'm gay. This topic has been bugging me ever since I was 14, and I'm not ashamed, it's who I am, but my parents will never understand. They are really homophobic, and I know if I tell them they will kick me out of the house.

I need to tell them, I have waited long enough, if they don't respect me for who I am, or who or what I like then who cares. No one cares about be any way. I sit on my bed, I hear someone coming up the stairs, then I hear knocking on the door. "Come in" I address. It turns out to be my mum. "Sweetie dinners ready" she said peaking her head in. I just say I'm not hungry. "What's wrong dear?" She asks me with a concerned look on her face. "Get dad in here to, I need to talk with you both" I tell her. She goes downstairs, and comes back up with my dad. "Sit" I tell them "this is a lot to take in" I say with my head down. I just stair at my shoes. I can't even look my parents in the eyes. Well, let's see how this goes." I say in my head, there are many other thoughts rushing through my head, anxiety starts building up in my brain. I just took a deep breath, and told them "I'm gay, and I'm proud. I don't care what you think, because that's me, it's who I am, and if you don't love me for being myself, then everything is a lie, because that's what you said I had to be, and I'm glad that I'm myself because I realize how happy I am with myself, and it's been a damn long time since I felt that way" it's dead silent, my dad stands up, I know what's coming.

My dad stands up and slaps me right in the face, leaving a very visible red hand mark on the left cheek, he says nothing and just points to the door. He leaves, my room and my mom follows behind him, they don't even look back. "Well I guess I have to pack" i go into the hall and open the attic door to get my suitcase, as I'm coming back down I herd soft sobs coming from Tydes room. I guess my parents were telling him I got kicked out. I didn't want to bother, I couldn't bare seeing my parents after that. I go into my room.

I grab my phone and charger and head to my closet, I open my closet door and grab my clothes. I get all my jackets, shirts, jeans, sweats, shoes, socks, and underwear. In the back of my closet, I saw a camera. I always wanted to make videos, but I never really had any inspiration. I look around my room, I just couldn't take it. I grab the camera and put it in my bag. I then walk into my bathroom to grab my toothbrush, hair gel and ect. But then I saw something in my moms makeup bag. It was a sharpener, to sharpen her lipliner and all that. I couldn't take it. My arms were starting to itch, I break the sharpener, and grab the razor inside of it. "It's been a while" I put the razor in the front pocket of my suitcase, and without looking back, I walk through the front door.