Wonderland (Troyler)

Chapter 19

TROYES POV:

I go lay down on my couch to take everything off my mind, like Tyler, my depression, all the hate, this YouTube convention, my family kicking me out, Tyde, and Phoebe...It's just so much happening at once.

Right when I sit down I hear a knock on the door. I grunt and get up and just look through the peephole

"Shit, of course it's Tyler" I'm not mad to see him, but I'm not happy either. I guess cause I'm in a bad mood and so much is rushing through my mind, I don't even want to open my mouth because I don't know what would come out.

I grab the knob and open the door.

"Hey" I said, with literally no emotion, I wasn't even looking at him. I was looking down at my feet. I guess it's because he makes me nervous, and I like him so much but I don't want to see him right now, and I don't want it to make it seem like I hate him.

I look up, Tyler's already staring me in the eye. He has a very concerned look on his face. I was confused at first, but I kinda knew where this is going.

"Troye, when I was editing I-um well I don't know how to say this, but when you stretched, you had cuts on your arm"

There. All the shit that was running through my mind, it's gone. My mind went blank. I had a blank facial expression, I was flabbergasted.

"Troye if you wanna talk about this I-"

"No" I said firmly, and cutting him off.

"Troye I just want to hel-"

I cut him off again. This time I yelled, but I didn't even know it.

"I don't need your help okay? This is my life, my body, and my mind, and I want to take control over myself for once. People have been pushing me around for to long and I'm tired of it! All my life people have been telling me what to do and I'm just done. I'm 18! I can take care of myself. Okay? So just leave me alone please!!!!!"

It was dead silent.

"Okay" Tyler said, kinda sad and kind of angry, then he walked away

I slam the door.

"I blew it"