Wonderland (Troyler)

Chapter 16

TROYES POV:

I finally get to my room, and I just throw myself on the couch.

"I made such an idiot of myself"

I just need to forget about that and find something to get off my mind till 8:00. I take out my phone open twitter. I saw the picture of me and Tyler in the lobby is all over my feed. I started to smile like an idiot.

As I scrolled down more I saw tweets like

"Ew why is Tyler hanging out with this fugly fag"

"Awe look Tyler and his dog how cute"

"Tyler deserves better friends then this worthless piece of shit"

I through my phone at the wall. I couldn't read and more. I burry my face in my hands and just cry. I pop my head up and the first thing my eyes land on is the suitcase. I slowly get of the couch and grab the razor. I locked the door and went in the bathroom. All I hear is voices in my head. I swore I wouldn't let anyone get to me, but it was as if my body have been possessed my my worst enemy.

"Worthless" One cut
"Fag" Two Cuts
"Stupid" Three

I couldn't stop until I looked down at my watch which said 7:45pm

"Shit"

I look down at my arm, blood is flowing and little droplets landed on the mat. I grab a towel and wrap it around my arm.

"I can't let Tyler see me like this"

I start to feel a little light headed, but I was to focused on trying to hide my scars. I grab the razor and shove it in a drawer. I start to panic realising that it's now 5 to 8:00. Time feels like it's going by so fast. I couldn't think of what to do so I just run out of the bathroom and grab sweatpants and a sweatshirt and run back in the bathroom making sure I don't leave a trail of blood. I throw the towel in the hamper, along with my clothes I'm taking off and I quickly turn on the shower and turn on the water.

I know I just made it after hearing a knock on the door.

"Come in" I said.

Every YouTuber has the same key, so it was pretty pointless for me to lock the door, but I wasn't thinking of anything.

As the warm water hits my scars I try not to scream in pain, but I need to wash off the blood.

"Troye?" I hear Tyler call my name.

"I'm in the shower I'll be out in a second" I yelled back.

"Ok I'll be waiting on the couch" Tyler said.

I turn of the water and jump out of the shower and grab another towel and quickly dry off. I rub the towel hard on my arm which stings, but I didn't want Tyler to think I'm a depressed freak. I dry my hair and make a quiff. I put on my sweatshirt so I could hide my scars and my sweatpants, just to match.

I open the door and great Tyler with a hug.
********************************************Okay two things

1.) that was the hardest thing I ever had to write because I love Troye with the bottom of my heart.

And 2.) this story mostly revolves around Troye so most of it is gonna be from his POV so I hope that's okay!

Also sorry for any spelling errors or mistakes.