say that you love me

eight

As the night went on Draco and I sat together, occasionally getting close whenever the air felt at its coldest. We talked about life, our families, our childhood memories together and how overtime we grew apart.

He walked me to the the main entrance to the common room. Though I was tired, I didn't want this to end. I knew I'd see him again tomorrow but I didn't want to let go of this moment. He held my hand, leaning against the wall as he stared into my eyes. I felt a sea of emotions hit me, I stood there, frozen as I stared back into his grey eyes. How could I feel love for two people? Does this make me a bad person? Did I really grow to love Draco?

We stood in silence for about a minute before I reached in, wrapping my arms around his torso. He was taller than me so I had to go on my toes to properly hug him. He laughed at how small I looked compared to him. How could I not be so attracted to this man? His laugh. His smile. His way of speaking. His sense of humor, the personality. He was everything. But, why was I still thinking about Harry? Why was I worried about what he would think? Was I worried simply because of their rivalry, that I was falling for his enemy? Or was I worried because deep down I knew that I still had hope for us.

I know well that I'm reaching too much with Harry, especially with Cho in the picture.

I just want a sign, something that will lead me to the right path.

I know that "follow your heart" is something that everyone would end up telling me but that's not enough. My heart wants both- it beats for both of these men.

"I should be heading back soon, I don't want to get caught though- it would be worth it" Draco whispered, giving a cheeky smile. I smiled back at him, examining the features on his face. The way his eyes crinkled as he smiled. The way his smile could easily light up a room and yet he doesn't see this. Is he even real?

A lot of people notice this. They notice him. They want him. And who wouldn't?

But he doesn't notice them. He noticed me.

I snap out of my thoughts and nod, letting a small sigh out. I was upset of course but I didn't want him getting into trouble, I didn't want to be the reason why he was put into detention.

"I'll see you tomorrow then Malfoy" I chuckle softly, slowly letting go of his hand. I watch as he looks down at them, nodding before he looked at me once again, "until tomorrow y/l/n" he whispered. He pulled me close, then looked into my eyes before he slowly leaned in. Our lips touched again, I felt his body press against mine as I deepened our kiss.

He was making this so much harder for me to decide.

He pulled away, smiling before turning around. I watch as he walked away into the dark. I sigh quietly, turning around to give the password to walk into the common room.

I quietly make my way up to the dormitory, sneaking into my bed.

The next morning I woke up a little earlier than the rest of the girls. I grab my uniform and head into the shower, making sure I looked nice for the day. I decide to let my hair down to dry, having a hair tie on my wrist in case I decided to use it later.

I catch up with Hermione and Ginny who were walking together to the great hall for breakfast.

"so where'd you sneak off to last night?" Hermione asks as we take a seat. I sat there frozen for a second before turning to look at her and at Ginny who was turned away from us.

"Look Hermione you have to promise me not to mention this to anybody ever, this is very confidential and I don't know what I'd do if anyone heard about this, especially Harry" I say, looking around to make sure no one was listening to us. She nodded, turning serious before she took my hands, "of course I promise what's going on?". I take a deep breath, looking away from her, "I snuck out to see Draco I know that it's bad but he asked to see me and I actually had a really nice time with him. We talked about a lot of deep stuff and I don't know Hermione I like him but I just don't know what to do" I whispered, almost freaking myself out. She looked stunned, mostly confused too. "So you're over Harry?" she asked, tilting her head to the left. I shook my head slowly, "I don't think so. I told Draco everything and he understood but we did kiss- twice and I don't want to lead him on in case I do still feel something for Harry but there's no point to it because we all know how he feels about Cho" I continued to whisper, not wanting anyone around us to eavesdrop into our conversation. I can tell she was still trying to process what I had told her. She looked behind me and sat up, "Ron and Harry are on their way, get yourself together and act normal". I quickly look back, sitting up while I fixed my hair. I took a deep breath then smiled as they sat in front of us.