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Bedtime Anxiety (Sope) FLUFF/ANGST

Bedtime.

A time that Hoseok simultaneously loved and hated.

Sure, he loved to sleep. It was always nice to be able to rest and recharge after a long day.

What could he possibly hate about sleep?

Well, Hoseok had a special condition. This condition made it very hard for him to sleep, and he hated to admit it to other people. They would just say that he was being childish or a scaredy-cat. At least, he assumed they would. So here he was, curled up in bed with his blanket pulled tightly around him. His eyes were closed, and he was doing his best to relax.

It was so hard to relax though. Just knowing what could happen caused him to experience anxiety. Sleeping was meant to cause relaxation. How could he possibly fall asleep when the act of sleeping made him so anxious? The anxiety sometimes got so bad that he would actually have a panic attack. Maybe he would sleep better if he could take some sleep medication. However, he couldn't take such medication because it would leave him feeling groggy for the whole next day. He couldn't do that.

Feeling helpless, Hoseok just squeezed his eyes shut a little tighter and tried to think about nice things. A calm breeze, a grassy field, wrapping himself in silk, just nice things to fill his mind. It was working. His anxiety was going down, and he was feeling much more relaxed. He was slowly slipping into dreamland, reaching the point of being so relaxed that he had begun to drool onto his pillow.

But then, he heard it. A door slammed and startled him awake. Hoseok sat up, breathing heavily from being thrust into full alert so suddenly. He glanced around his dark room and didn't see anything out of the ordinary. Looking to his bedroom door, he saw that it was still ajar, the way he had left it.

With his heart pounding, Hoseok laid back down and tried to relax again. The apartment was silent; everyone else must be asleep. Hoseok needed to sleep as well. Thinking pleasant thoughts again, he gradually lowered his anxiety levels, entering the same state of near-sleep once more.

And again, it didn't last long. Hoseok was startled into full alert at the sound of a loud thunder crack. Quickly sitting up, Hoseok tried to get his breathing under control as he listened to the silence around him. He got out of bed and stepped over to the window. Peeling back the curtain, he looked at the sky. Not a cloud in sight. Stars dazzled the dark void as if someone had poked holes into Heaven's floor. It was beautiful and calm.

"I can't sleep like this..." Hoseok mumbled quietly to himself. Lazily, he shuffled his way out of his bedroom and down the hall. He went to the kitchen and fetched a glass from the cabinet. Not wanting to open a water bottle just for a sip, he simply used the glass to get a small bit of water from the tap. After a small drink, he placed the cup into the sink then headed back to the hall.

His own bedroom was not his destination though. Hoseok didn't bother knocking before entering someone else's bedroom. He made his way over to the bed and crawled onto it carefully. As he made himself comfortable, he felt the blanket drape over him.

"Good night, Hoseokie..." There were no questions asked. This was just accepted.

"Good night, Yoongi-hyung." As much as Yoongi didn't like to be disturbed as he slept, Hoseok knew his hyung wouldn't mind him slipping into his bed like this. After all, this wasn't the first time. Just as everyone knew Hoseok was Yoongi's 'energy source' and motivation at times, Hoseok thought of Yoongi as his stress reliever. He felt safe with all the members, but only Yoongi gave him that sense of anxiety relief when he truly needed it.

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In the morning, Hoseok felt so much better when he woke up. He had managed to get some quality sleep while being in Yoongi's bed. No more loud noises had startled him. Looking at his sleeping hyung, he couldn't help but smile. Feeling happy that his hyung cared for him, he cuddled closer. However, this resulted in Hoseok being pushed off the bed.