Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan

Chapter 9

I was really surprised when the moment I opened the door revealing Liseu, it's really unexpected for her to voluntarily come infront of me when she has been avoiding me for days.

And for the most part, all the things she said made me feel like I was somewhat an important part of her life, though I do still feel sad about my grandma but now that she's here, the pain eases.

But looking at her feeling so guilty about leaving was really hard to watch as well, saying sorry for something that she isn't at fault is something that I wish she would stop doing, and I really wanted to cover my ears when she kept saying that I should look for someone else, when she's the one I've been looking for.

But I'm quite glad that she knows that I'm not with someone and her saying that she's willing to lend a shoulder for me to lean was such an eargasm. Slowly I felt my heart beat more faster, my breathing getting heavy and I found myself constantly looking at her lips to her eyes, and at that moment when she was showering me with lots of words of comforts, I wanted to feel her lips once again and to show her how much I longed for her.

I didn't want to take advantage of her though I know that she's not really drunk, I don't want to make her feel uncomfortable with me but my body wasn't cooperating with me and instead wanted to do something that is against my will but it was also something that I wanted.

"Oh and I wanted to te-", before she could even finish her sentence I cutted her off by kissing her on the lips and pressing it more by pulling her by the waist. She wasn't responding so I knew that I'll just have to continue doing it until we went inside my room, but still not breaking the kiss and up until she finally responds.

I was almost out of breath when she suddenly responded and the moment she did it felt like my lungs acquired back all the air that went out, a smile immediately curved out my lips in between the kiss.

I placed my hand that were on her cheeks to her waist while she trailed her's on my neck and clung onto it. Our lips were on perfect sync for some good time but we have to broke it when we were out of oxygen.

I rested my forehead on hers and we looked at each other in the eyes, slowly melting each other by just our stares.

"How can I look for someone else when you're still there.", I whispered to her and didn't bother to wait for her response when I pressed my lips again on hers.

Suddenly all the memories I had with her popped up in my mind. I didn't want to ignore it as it was one of the bestest memories I had.

[Flashback Six Years Ago]

I was about to walk down the stairs when I unintentionally heard the doctors voice, and it made me automatically halt from my paces.

"I'm really sorry but I can't guarantee that this medications will help your life last longer but I promise that I'll do whatever I can to find a way."

My breathing became heavy as my knees are starting to get weaker, but I tried my best to prevent it when the door opened revealing the doctor with my parents. They asked me if I was there since earlier but I lied, and luckily, they believed me and asked me to go inside grandma's room. With a heavy heart, I took a deep breath before entering her room and saw her laying there looking so weak but managed to pull off a smile when she saw me came in.

"G-grandma, are you o-okay?", I couldn't stop myself from stuttering when I know the fact that she's really not.

"Of course! Don't worry there's nothing wrong.", She smiled at and I just replied with a faint one.

'But there is grandma, there's something wrong and you're not okay.'

Words I wanted to say but I was unable to.

"But there is one thing that is wrong.", She cheekily grinned and I knew that it was something that she has been telling me for the past days.

"Grandma..."

"Really? Even now you still don't have one? I really want to see my grandson with a girlfriend."

"But-", I stopped my own words when I now understand why she kept telling me to have one.

For days I couldn't stop thinking of grandma and just grandma along with the 'she wants me to have a girlfriend' thing. I don't want to have one yet because I still believe in the saying that...

'Love comes more naturally to the human heart than it's opposite' (-Nelson Mandela)

And I just also think that most of the girls here in school just wants someone who is popular for fame.

'Says the one who pranks and makes fun of other people.'

Don't get me wrong but, it's just in my instincts and I do not take anything seriously, to the point where they'll get injured or something.

In a snap I already found someone whom, maybe grandma would like. She was walking awkwardly alone and just looks at the ground, so I took that chance to take advantage of her.

And I was right, I didn't misjudged her, she was kind to the point that she said sorry to a thing that she doesn't know if she's at fault or not, and I think it's super rare for juniors to be respectful these days.

I successfully threatened her into being my fake girlfriend though it really sounds awful, I just don't have any choices but to make it as a fake one cause I don't want to have one yet and I'm still not kinda ready.

I knew a lot of information of her in an instant with the help of my sources which are my friends. My family liked her the first time I introduced her to them, and more importantly my grandma likes her that she'd always want to invite her to have dinner with us, and since then grandma would be the one who always call her and I'm the one who will pick her up from her apartment but it's still a relief, I've never seen grandma this happy before that sometimes thoughts like imagining her being sad if our agreement will end still comes to my mind.

For days I thought grandma was the only one who wants Liseu to join us but why do I also find myself wanting to see her, wanting to know more of her, know her bad sides too and was always curious of what's she's up to. I know I'm not supposed to feel that but it just so happened that it turned out like this.

Like what happened that day when I just only realized that I'm already infront of her apartment but I still do have a planned out reason if she's suddenly suspicious of why I'm here, and as expected she is surprised and knowing that she didn't tell me her address made her even more, like I said I have a lot of sources.

Grandma wasn't really the one who insisted for me to go to her and ask her for a date, it was all my plan in the first place which she successfully bought, and going at her apartment was one of the best decisions that I made. I admit that she was really cute half awake, her messy hair and crooked shirt, made me imagine what would it be like if I could always wake up with the sight of her first thing in the morning.

And the most unforgettable moment when I got the urge to kiss her in the lips.

'I must be crazy if I suddenly want to kiss her.'

'But I think I really am going crazy.'

It was my first and unknowingly, I was glad that it was with her, it felt so warm and soft that I could feel my heart flutter for the very first time, and I liked how it feel, the feeling of suddenly being on cloud nine.

'What is this feeling?...'