Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan

Chapter 18

They say, if you like someone and would have the chance to tell them how you feel, you must never hold back because one day you might realize that it's too late and everything has turned out the way you wouldn't like with no way to go back in time and do it all over again.

But in my case, what if I've already did confess but got nothing in return.
Is it still counted as a way of not losing chances?

But what if I redo it, will it change anything? And what if he's truly just a hallucination?

I turned around again. I can't possibly talk to something that doesn't exist right? I've already took my chance and if he doesn't have an answer, I guess I have nothing to do with it.

Liking him from afar was the only thing that I could do, and if ever he sees me in that distance, I'm still not sure what would I probably do.

"Wait!", I heard him again, and at that moment, I've already known what would I do if that distance between me and him cuts.

I halted from my steps but didn't look back. Just another word from him, and I would really believe that he's here.

"Liseu.", He called my name in the most dearing tone I've haven't heard in a while. When I looked back, he was really there, smiling, in a way that I would always want to see.

He slowly walked closer to me and when he did, he took the scarf off his neck and placed it around mine instead.

"It's cold.", I just stared at him and no words could try to escape from my mouth. Just by what he did just now, I could already forget the coldness.

"Why are you strolling in the middle of this cold weather and also at night?", He tucked his hands inside his coat's pocket. The feeling of still not believing that he's really still lingers in me.

"W-What about you?", His face brightened. "Aren't you cold?", I creased my forehead but he just grinned.

"I'm perfectly o-"

"Achooo!", Before he could even finish his phrase, I cutted him off by sneezing. I wiped my nose with the back of my palm. Now that was a bit embarrassing for me.

"Did you catch a cold?", I looked at him and shook my head.

"It's nothing."

He rubbed his palms together and suddenly cupped my cheeks, causing me to gasp. He caressed my cheeks with his thumb while I just stared at him. It's been awhile since I last saw him this close, and now he became extremely more handsome face his hair was brushed up and it was the first time I saw him in one.

Normally, when his this close to me, I would feel my heart almost going out of my chest from pounding so fast, but now it was different, this time I was at ease and I could really enjoy the moment.

"It's been awhile.", He suddenly spoke again but his palms are still on my cheeks.

"Yes, it has bee-"

"I missed you.", He started deeply into my eyes. "...so much.", I could really feel the loneliness in his tone that I had the strong urge to pull him into an embrace but didn't have the courage to.

How I wish that this moment would last; him and me sharing the same feelings.

"Me too.",I said under my breath but I made it enough for him to hear.
"But...", I pursed my lips.

"But why?"

"Jeonghan.",He raised his brows."Can't you tell me the truth, please, so I can have a reason to stop.", I bit my lower lip. Whatever he'll answer me now, I would accept it.

"Do you already have a girlfriend? If you do, why are you doing this to me? Are you cheating on her-"

"Wait. Too many questions.", He chuckled causing me to furrow my brows. What if he'll lie to me again?

"What do you mean exactly? Have you seen me with another woman?", He now looked confused. I swear, I did see him with a girl on that night inside a restaurant.

"Uhmm, y-you know on t-that night at that restaurant, you were w-with a woman. I won't explain how she looks like cause you would know.", He furrowed his brows and looked up, probably thinking. If ever he does remember and would tell me that it was his girlfriend, I can't promise that I would be okay cause I won't be.

"Ah!", My heart started to beat uncontrollably, waiting for him to continue. "You mean her? She's not my girlfriend.", He chuckled. "She's the daughter of one of our investors. His Father considered me to be his son-in-law.", Then she's not his girlfriend, she's her fiance! I sighed and pursed my lips after.

"I see...", I looked down on my shoes and waited for what he could possibly say.

Shakespeare was right, expectation is the root of all heartbreaks. Though I didn't want to, I expected that he would say he doesn't already have one but in the end of the conversation he has and nothing will ever change.

"But I already love someone.", I quickly perked up. "And that dinner turned out to be a friendly date.", His lips formed into a warm smile.

"I see...", Then what now? If they were just friends and he already love-

"It's you Liseu.", My mouth parted."That someone I love is you. I waited for you to come back here from the states."

My whole surrounding and even me stopped. If this is a dream, I never wish to wake up. This is exactly what I wanted to hear from him and now that he's saying it, I can't help but still be surprised.

"W-What?"

"I love you.", He grabbed my hand and pulled it up to his chest."Way more longer than you thought.", I felt his heart beating so fast through my palms causing me to raise my brows, staring at him. Like mine, his heart is panicking too.

"So please, don't run away anymore, and either will I.", He plastered a faint smile.

"Hmmm.", I hummed in response. Maybe confessing my feelings did turned out great.

"Now come on. It's cold here.", He held my hand down and walked to his car with me following.

"Wait.", He stopped and faced me again confusedly.

"Why?"

"It's okay. I'll just find a taxi.", I forged a smile and he sighed.

"Come on. It's our first day together, I can't let my girlfriend walk around here cold.", He tend his attention back infront again and continued walking.
While the excitement that I was trying so hard to hide showed up; my heatened cheeks, the feeling of my insides churning and the smile that I tried so hard to contain until now.

"Are you okay?", He asked when he took a glance at me while steering the wheel. "You've been quiet since earlier.", I just slightly shook my head.

Ever since I got inside his car, the atmosphere has been very awkward for me. I don't know why but I can't help but to just freeze in my spot.

"Were you jealous?", I quickly looked at him, wide eyed.

"W-What? J-Jealous?", I clearly don't remember being jealous. Never.

"Yes. You were.", He chuckled. "When all this time you thought I have a girlfriend. In the first, why did you think like that? Clearly you were jealous because you've already jumped into conclusions."

I was left speechless. Is that already considered as jealousy?

"I was just kidding.", I looked at him in disbelief but his eyes was still on the road.

He sure knows how to get people in a corner, and I sure am one of those many people.